I Broke Her

14

Bridie

"Morning Bridie" "morning angelic" "you are up early" "I guess the worries of today" "I'm sure it will be playing on your mind. Let's have some breakfast then go to your house" "that sounds great".
"Would you like a coffee?" "Yes please I can.." "no you won't be, you will sit" taking as seat at the bench, I watched as angelic made us both a coffee and some breakfast. "Here you go" "thank you".
"How much have you got at the house?" "As in clothes?" "No everything" "not too much but none of it's really important" "if there's something you want, I want you to grab it" "angelic it's my house" "you do not own it" "no but.." "if you will not move back to san diego, I want you to live here" "that is too much I can't afford to pay you if I am not working" "I never mentioned anything about paying me, you worry too much. Callan and I have quite enough" "but..." "No buts" I shook my head "okay no buts" "good. Let's finish this and get out of here. The earlier the better".

"This is where you lived?" "Yes it's simple but it was enough" "woman I should slap you" I chuckled as we got out of the car.
Opening the door to the house, angelic looked around "this is it?" "Yes" she just shook her head "come on, let's get your stuff before I start feeling claustrophobic" "come on angelic, it's not that bad" "yes it is".
Walking into my room, I grabbed my suitcase filling it with my clothes and my bathroom items. checking all the drawers, there was nothing if importance.
Walking back out, angelic looked at me "that can't be all" "I'm just going to check all the cupboards to see if I need anything but I'm pretty sure i have everything I need and want" "alright".
Doing a search through the house, there was nothing else besides my laptop that I needed or wanted. I don't have any photos or anything of meaning.
"Alright that's it" "are you sure?" "Yes I don't own jewelry or photos" "okay let's get out of here. Do you have all your clothes?" "Yes" angelic nodded.
Putting everything in the boot of the car, we got back in and drove straight back to angelics.

"Did you go already?" "Yes we both woke up early" "is that all you need bridie?" "Yes, I'm just going to take it to my room" "alright".
Taking the suitcase and my laptop up stairs, I sat down on my bed. I know today is going to be a big day.

Come twelve o'clock , I walked down stairs.
"How are you feeling bridie?" "Nervous" "come on, let's have a hot drink before he arrives" "you have the men at work?" "Yes keeps them out of the house too" I nodded.
Having a drink with angelic, I heard the knock at the door.
"Ready?" "I guess so".
Walking to the door with angelic, she answered the door.
"Hi I am here to see a patient" "john right?" "Yes ma'am" "okay you can come in, I will show you both to a private room" "are you my patient?" "Yes sir" "john is fine".
"Here you go, I will leave you two to it" "thank you angelic".

"I'm john and you are?" "Bridie" "you have had some struggles?" "Yes I have. I havent spoke to anyone about them".
"Let's start from the beginning. Take your time if you don't feel comfortable just stop" "do I need to mention names?" "No but it can help. What you say will not leave this room" "in every situation?" "Yes you have my word" I nodded.
"Ahh okay well I was with dinah" "who is dinah?" "My partners mother" "okay" "I was with dinah and we were having a good chat, she was unwell due to a very aggressive cancer and I loved spending my time with her. She had asked me to go get her some medication as she was running low. Before I left, I made sure she had everything she needed then headed out of the house. When I arrived back at the house dinah was at the bottom of the steps bleeding and unconscious" "how did that make you feel?" "Upset and angry" john nodded as he wrote down something on his writing pad. "I had checked her pulse and then rolled her into the recovery position. Just as I did that, the front door opened and my partner" "who was your partner?" "Dannon" he nodded "dannon came in and pushed me aside yelling at me" "what did he say?" "He can't believe I would hurt his mother and that I was going to pay for what I had done" "then what happened?" "He grabbed my arm and dragged me to the bathroom locking me in there for a while. I don't know how long it was, I was still in shock he had blamed me for hurting dinah"
"Did he come back?" "Yes" "what happened?" "He came and grabbed my arm. I kept trying to tell him I didn't do it, I was only trying to help but he just kept telling me to shut up. He dragged me out side and picked me up throwing me in the boot of his car" "in the boot?" "Yes" "how were you feeling?" "Frightened" "why?" "He was blaming me for hurting his mother and he was angry, I didn't know what he was going to do" john nodded "then what?" "After driving for quite sometime making me hit my head many times as he went around the corners, he stopped the car and opened the boot. Pulling me out of the boot, he dropped me to the ground and kicked me in the stomach before dragging me into a warehouse" "at this point you were already hurting?" "Yes" "go on" "he put me on a chair and covered my mouth with duct tape then tied my arms and legs to the chair" I put my head down "would you like to stop?" "No I need to do this" keeping my head down, I continued. "He hit me a few times in the face" "open hand or punch?" "Both. Then he pulled out a knife" "and this point how were you feeling?" "Petrified, hurt and upset. He cut my face telling me that I don't deserve to live after what I had done" "but you didn't do it" "no I didn't" "what else happened?" He ripped my shirt from my body and cut my chest in a cross telling me I shouldn't have a heart for hurting his mother then sunk the knife into my stomach. The last thing I remember is him punching me in the head" "when you woke up where were you?" "At the hospital in san diego" "do you know how you got there?" "No all I was told was someone found me on the side of the road" "what injuries did you have?" "I was bruised on my face, a scar on my face, two on my chest and my stomach" "how do they make you feel?" "Ugly, awful inside And devastated" "why devastated?" "I lost my chance to have kids".
"How long were you in the hospital?" "A week" "and where did you go?" "To los Angeles" "how did you get there?" "I still had my small card holder in the back of my pants. I used my card to catch a bus" "why los Angeles?" "I don't know, I just needed to leave San Diego. I thought he was going to kill me" "and you said this happened six years ago" "yes" "what about your family?" "I cut ties with everyone" "why?" "I didn't want them getting hurt" "so even after everything, you were trying to protect others?" "I don't want anyone to go though what I have, especially the people that I love" "you have been on your own?" "Yes but I always feel like someone is watching me" "how much do you sleep?" "Some nights a lot then others I get night terrors" "night terrors?" I nodded "yes It feels like I am reliving what happened. I wake up in a sweat while screaming" "how often does this happen?" "Sometimes once a week and sometimes once a fort night" "have they decreased?" "Yes for the first couple of years it happened every night, I couldnt function" "that would've be hard on your life" "yes it was. I lived off benefits due to not being able to work" "how were you in a public place?" "Scared" "because you felt like someone was watching you?" "Yes" "what about now?" "I still have the feeling" "do you not feel comfortable here?" "A little bit but it's always in the back of my mind" "that's normal. What makes you feel relaxed?" "Relaxed or calm?" "Why did you ask me that?" "Well I never feel completely relaxed but sitting by the pond makes me calm" "I would like you to do that. I will need to see you a few times if that's okay with you" "that is fine" "until our next appointment in two days, I want you to spend as much time as you can at the pond to calm your mind and body" I nodded "okay well let's finish this session here and I will see you in two days" "okay".
John stood up and opened the door "take care Bridie" "you too".