I Broke Her

6

Dannon.

"Here dannon" "thank you angelic" "remember what I said. if you need anything, call me" "I appreciate it" "be calm with her, she is going to be petrified" I nodded "I know".
"Alright the car is ready, return it when you can" "of course and thanks callan" "I just hope you can find her" "if you hear anything please let me know" "we will".
"Apollo any issues, call me" "same with you" I nodded.
Getting in the car, I started it up and set the gps then wound down my window.
"I will see you guys soon" "take care dannon" I nodded.
Taking off down the road, the only thing on my mind was how I am going to approach her if I find her and what her reaction is going to be. I know what I did and my guess is she is going to be a mess. I shouldn't have done what I did, not to someone who was innocent. I should've questioned her before I acted out.
This is the longest five and a half hour trip of my life. I just hope she is still at the hotel. Finally arriving in sacromento for the first time ever, my heart rate picked up from nerves and uncertainty. My hands were sweating on the steering wheel. I have always been the one to control but I have no control over this. I don't even know if she will still be here. Callan hasn't contacted me to tell me they have spotted her licence plate anywhere else, so I guess that's a good thing.
I haven't seen her in six years and the last time I did see her, she was bleeding and out cold. The sickness feeling arose in my stomach at just the thought of what I did to the woman I love. I couldn't kill her even though I thought she had hurt my mother, I just couldn't do it.
Pulling up into the car park of the motor in, the car she was driving was parked out the front but that doesn't mean she is still here. It's not parked in front of a room.
Turning the car off, I got out and locked the car. Walking to the reception, I wasn't sure what I was going to say. Even if I ask the reception I don't know if they will tell me. I need to make something up.

Walking in a older lady was at the desk.
"Hi can I help you?" "Ahh yes a friend of mine asked me to meet her here but i don't know if she has arrived" "what's your friends name?" "Bridie johnson" "yes she has arrived. she is in room eight" "thank you" "it's not a problem".
Well that was easier than I thought it would be. now I need to find room eight. I can only hope she is in there.
She is not going to answer the door to my voice and I need to stay out of view of a window if its near the door.
Walking to room eight, I stayed out of view and knocked on the door.
"Just a minute" oh her sweet voice. Seeing the door open, I put my foot in the door way.
"No" the look of fear in her beautiful blue eyes as she stepped backwards. "I didn't do It, I swear dannon" "bridie" she shook her head "no please just leave me alone" "bridie listen to me" she shook her head as she stepped back. fear all over her face. Putting my hands up so she could see I didn't have anything on me, she continued to move back. Grabbing her bags she ran to the bathroom and closed the door. Closing the front door, I walked to the bathroom door.
"Bridie" "I don't want to die" "I'm not here to hurt you bridie" "no you are only lying" "bridie listen to me. I know you didn't do it" "stop you are only playing with my head so you can hurt me" "NO. Listen. I know you didn't do it. I know you went to get medication for my mother. My mother left a letter in her room alia found it" "I didn't do it I swear dannon please just let me live". Nothing Is registering in her head right now. "Bridie jamee did it, jamee was the one that hurt my mother. I know it wasnt you" what the hell can I do to get her to believe me. 'angelic'.
"Bridie" "no please" I fucking destroyed her.

"Dannon" "angelic I need you to speak to bridie nothing is registering. Can you do that?" "How?" "I'm going to slide my phone under the door, can you just reassure her" "alright I will try".
"Bridie" "dannon please I didn't do it" "I'm going to slide my phone under the door. Angelic is going to speak with you".
Sliding my phone under the door, I could hear angelic.
"Bridie" "I didn't do it angelic" "we know that sweetheart, Dinah left a letter" "poor dinah she didn't deserve that, I didn't do it" "we know you didn't, jamee did" "I just went to get her medication, she was low and asked me to get her some" "we know bridie, take a deep breath and listen to me. A letter from dinah was found in her room. she said you weren't the one that did it, it was jamee" "He's going to kill me" I sat down on the other side of the door. The images of what I had done to bridie invaded my mind.
"Bridie stay calm okay. Dannon isn't going to hurt you, he has come to find you to apologise. He knows you didn't hurt dinah" bridie didn't reply.
"Bridie" "he's here" "yes he is but he is not going to hurt you. You need to trust me okay. I would not let him come see you if he was going to hurt you" "he did" "we know and he is really sorry" "I didn't do it" "talk to him bridie. let him talk to you. Block your thoughts out" "I can't" "yes you can. I promise he won't hurt you" hearing a smash from the window I knew damn well she was going to try run. Running out of the room around the back bridie had just jumped out. I didn't want to tackle her but I think its my only option. Running towards her, I grabbed her around the waist pulling her to the ground. "No please".
"Bridie listen to me" she shook her head as she curled herself up in a ball "I'm not going to hurt you. I'm here to apologise. I know I already hurt you but I promise I'm not here to hurt you now. Please just look at me" she shook her head "no I just want to live" I destroyed her, this is all my fault. Removing her hands from her legs with force she tried to fight against me. Seeing the scar on her face, the sickness feeling only got worse, not because of the scar but because I know I did it to her. Seeing her blue eyes look at me they were filled with fear.
Cupping her chin in my hand gently, I looked into her eyes. "I'm not here to hurt you bridie. You are not the person who hurt my mother, Jamee did it. I believe you didn't do it" "I didn't do it" "no you didn't, jamee did" "you.. you are going to kill me" "no I'm not going to hurt you" "you did" "yes but never again. You don't deserve to be hurt" she is speaking to me calmly that's a start. I don't know if its registering yet but I will continue as long as I need to. The woman I love is destroyed mentally and it's all my fault. I want to walk away. it's killing me seeing her like this but I need to be here, I need it to register in her head that I am not going to hurt her. Running my thumb over the scar bridie put her head down "don't make it worse" "I am not going to hurt you bridie. I want to help. I am so so sorry for everything I did to you. I know sorry will never be enough" "you are not here to help" raising her head her eyes met with mine. Her bright blue eyes "I'm here to help I'm not going to hurt you ever again" "I don't.. I don't want to.." "bridie please just block the thoughts out and listen to me. I'm not going to hurt you. I'm going to help you. We need to get you back inside" bridie shook her head "it's a trap" "no bridie, its not a trap, I'm not going to hurt you. No one is going to hurt you. You are safe" I don't know if she believes me or not but i will instill it in her mind that no one is going to hurt her. I don't care how long it takes.