The gap between us - ( Seven deadly sins)

Chapter 4 - Sneek

I love Zeldris - Author-chan ~ ❤

- Melody Pov -

When I woke up, I was met with the unfamiliarity of fresh sheets and plain walls. I checked the clock on the floor - that's right, my uncle was always too lazy to assemble any of the IKEA furniture - it was 4:09AM. Fuck.

I was already a wreck, emotionally and physically. Luckily it was Friday, so that meant I only had one more day until the weekend. One more day until I could be at peace.
I had thought about it many times, but never actually decided to go through with it. As far as I knew, there was a bottle of strong prescription medication in the bathroom cupboard and a Stanley blade in my draw.
The depression had started chipping away at my sanity, bit by bit. The stronger it gets the more of my former self crumbles to the floor...discarded and forgotten. I guess I never did anything about it, or told my dad, because I was too afraid of what he was going to say. But now...daddy isn't home to tell me what to do.

I shot out of bed, rushed through getting changed and climbed out the window; my boots making a muffled thump as I landed on the lush grass of my uncles lawn. My bag was slung over my shoulder as I casually made my way to my house.

The sky was slowly darkening; blocking out the small amount of sunlight that had begun to peak over the horizon. Storm clouds began rolling in and the breeze sent a chill down my spine.

Surely I wasn't going to do this...

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I arrived at my house by 4:47AM and I felt kind of stoned, because I had barely gotten any sleep due to constantly debating whether or not to go through with the plan...

I harshly tossed my bag down and climbed the stairs, hoping that my asshole of a father hadn't decided to take the pills with him when he left.
The hallway felt longer than it had the last time I was here, it felt different. Unfamiliar.

I walked to the bathroom. My thick souled boots thumping aggressively on the floorboards. I passed my room, but decided not to go in and continued to the bathroom.

Why did I come back?
Simple, I wanted to have something that connected me to my father, to my childhood...so I could break it and forget it.

I pushed the bathroom door open and turned on the lights. There was a small flicker until the room was quickly filled with light. I sighed and walked over to the cabinet, opened it and began looking for the tube of blue pills. My hand grazed the familiar surface and I quickly withdrew. In it was the tube and the pills I was going to use to kill myself.

"Well then...I guess this'll give me a good excuse not to go to school today." I said with extra sarcasm as an overwhelming feeling of sadness hit me. I took in a shaky breath as I took off the lid and put some in my hand. "Goodbye." I shoved as many in my mouth as possible while trying not to cry.
I swallowed.

And then the door opened.

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Sorry for the dark chapter, I promise it will get better and she'll be alright.