L SERIES Side Story #1: Her End Game

Chapter 31: To Stay

ARIA.

Mabilis ang takbo ko para makarating sa pinakahuling palapag ng gusali. This is my last hope dahil lahat ng lugar na alam kong pwede niyang puntahan ay wala siya. Kahit pagod na pagod ay malakas kong binuksan ang pinto at doon ko siya nakita na nakatayo sa pinakadulo ng semento.

"Keirra Serenity." Napalingon siya sa akin at nanlaki ang mga mata niya nang makita ako sa harap niya.

"W-What are you doing here?" Tanong niya at dahan-dahan akong naglakad papalapit sakanya.

"Why did you came back, Rie?" She smiled bitterly and I can't help but to cry. I don't like her smile right now because it's breaking my heart.

"I never left you Keirra." Napakagat ako sa ibabang labi ko at nang makatayo na ako sa harap niya ay iniabot ko ang kamay ko sakanya.

"You'll leave me!" Bumuhos ang luha sa mga mata niya kaya napailing ako sakanya.

"Walang dahilan para iwanan kita Keirra. Let's go home please? Come with me." Nanginginig ang mga kamay niyang inabot ang kamay ko kaya agad ko siyang hinila kaya natumba kami pareho sa lupa.

"I don't want to marry her, Rie. Mali yung desisyon ko kasi hindi ko gustong magpakasal sakanya. I don't want to lose you. I want to be selfish again kaya please huwag kang aalis, huwag mo akong iiwan." Niyakap ko siya at naramdaman ko ang pagkabasa ng leeg ko.

"I will never leave you even if you push me away." This is the consequence of what happened before. Nawalan siya ng tiwala sa sarili niya at hinahayaan na lamang niya ang nga taong tinatapakan siya.

Mali ang nagawa niya noon pero hindi ibig sabihin 'non na masama na siyang tao. She's human too and she gets tired and hurt. She hurt her sister and lost the love of her life. Buong buhay niya ay kinulong niya ang sarili niya sa pag-abot ng mga expectations ng ibang tao para sakanya. She was the favorite so they let her be pero hindi niya kahit kailan naramdaman ang alagaan at mahalin ng lubusan.

She lived her life telling herself to do not just better but the best to win their favor. She's adopted and what scares her the most is being left alone.

Napuno ng inggit at takot ang puso niya nang malaman niyang ampon siya. She hated her sister and decided to resent her. Doon siya nagkamali kaya nawalan siya nang tiwala sa kanyang sarili. Nakatatak sakanya ang salitang walang maiiwan sa tabi niya kung hindi siya magiging 'the best'.

She forced Ate Victoria to love her dahil gusto niyang maramdaman ang mahalin pabalik but she never recieved any true love from her dahil si Ate Shina parin ang nasa isip niya. She became the villain and the worst person they've ever known pero ang hindi nila alam ay ang babaeng yakap ko ngayon ay may tinatago ring mga sikreto.

Ate Shina took a lot of time to open up to her friends but Keirra had no one to open up to. She's afraid that with just simple mistake she could lose everything kaya doon siya natutong itago lahat ng nararamdaman niya.

Everything is falling on their right places but not for her. She tortured herself with guilt and loneliness. She puts on her best mask and interact with people everyday. She's scared of herself, she's scared with her own demons but the truth is she just needed someone to support and understand her.

She made a mistake and because of that, everyone around her is already judging her. She choose to stay away from her parents and her sister to stop the conflicts that is happening in their lives. She's already on the process of healing but in just a snap her efforts are wasted because of the fact that she's adopted.

"Will you still leave me? I won't marry her anymore. I'll talk to my grandparents basta dito ka lang." Umiling ako sakanya at napakagat sa ibabang labi. Pinunasan niya ang mga luhang lumalandas sa pisngi ko.