Life changing moments

Chapter 44- Anxiety

Today I woke up at 12 pm the earliest I have in a few weeks.

I got up and packed my suitcase. I placed my outfit for tonight my makeup and other stuff in the suitcase for later and the night of the concert. I put on boyfriend pants and a white tank and converse and didn't put on any makeup and tied my hair in a high pony tail. I mean it is 7am and a train journey of an hour and a half. I brought my stuff down stairs to see Tristan, Brad and Lisa in the car. I got in the car and sat in the back with Brad. He greeted me with a kiss. We were interrupted by Tristan shouting "OMG Brad stop violating my little sis give her time to say hi." I burst out laughing but Brad went a light pink colour. "Where are the rest of you?" I asked.

"James is bringing Maddie and Connor and we are meeting Luisa there because she has a shoot "Tristan said pulling into the train station where I spotted the rest of our group.

"Hey guys" I said hugging all of them and giving Maddie a look as in to say we will talk later in which she responded by blushing making everyone notice. Subtle Maddie.

"Hey how long till the train?" Lisa asked looking at her watch.

"About 10 minutes" Connor said looking at the tickets Joe had printed out for us.

"I'm going getting a smoothie anyone want to come" I said looking over at the smoothie bar. I was joined by James and Maddie typical Fitness Freaks.

We were waiting in line and they were being all cute and I was just third wheeling till grab lifted me up from behind. I let out a screaming causing nearby people to stare at us but I don't care.

I just hugged him. Is it weird I missed him even though he was less than 10metres away from me. "Thank you" I whispered into his ear. Our hug was interrupted by the woman at the smoothie counter clearing her throat to get my attention. I walked up to the counter and ordered a banana and strawberry smoothie and I picked up a packet of almonds to nibble on. I paid and as soon as I grabbed the smoothie it was taken off me by brad.

I tried to get it off him but he was stretched his hand in the air. I started tickling his sides which automatically made him lower his hand. I grabbed the smoothie and laughed at him.

"Come on love birds, we will miss our train "James shouted.

We all began running to the train. We got there with a minute to spare. Maddie sat beside James and across from his was Tristan and Lisa and then it was brad and I and Connor lying asleep before the train even left across from us.

I placed an earphone in my ear and one in brads ear. We listened to I will wait by Munford's and Sons ( song above or to the side) . Half way through the journey and playlist I felt my eyes get heavy Brad brought me into his chest and wrapped an arm around my waist and started tracing circles on my side.

I was awakened by Brad shaking me. "Babe we are here".

I got up and stretched to see everyone else getting up. The train pulled up to the station and we all got ready to get off. James being the gentlemen he is helped us all get our bags.

We got off and we saw a car was hired for us from Joe. We got in and it brought it to our hotel. We were greeted by a group of fans waiting outside. The boys didn't think anything of this considering McBusted were In the same hotel but to they're surprise as soon as they got out of the car they were screaming for the boys to take pictures and autographs. I started to panic a bit because I have anxiety (this is what causes her to self-harm because she panics and over thinks situations) and I got really nervous. Everyone else kept walking but I was soon alone in the car staring at the crowd eating them up. I noticed Tristan looking around looking for something. He walked back to the car.

"There you are, are you ok? He said sitting beside me.

"Tristan I'm really nervous I'm not good with bud crowds I feel like I can't breathe, they scare me." I said crying.

"It will be fine I know what to do" he said getting out of the car and taking my hand.

"Get on my back and don't look, you won't be in the crowd you will be over most of them."

I smiled and did as he said. I looked a saw everyone looking confused and I saw Brad looking worried. Tristan just walked straight into the hotel. He placed me down when we got in and away from the crowds.

I hugged him and he kissed me head. "Don't worry I want tell them you have anxiety" and once he had that said everyone came rushing in. I mouthed thank you to Tristan before they got here. Brad walked over. "Hey are you ok what happened?" he said hugging me tightly. "O nothing me and Tris were just messing" I said before changing the subject. "

"So when is Luisa meeting us Connor?"

"She should be here in 30-45 minutes" he said looking down at his phone. We got are room keys and it was girls in 1 room boys in another.

We got into the rooms and they were beautiful. I am so excited for tonight and I can't wait to meet Luisa I hope she is as nice as everyone says she is.