Falling In Love ≫ c.a.d

Chapter 54

I was a complete wrack that the manager kicked me and Shawn out. I felt bad for Shawn because I planned to have a great day with him, but it all took a sharp left. I also felt bad for myself because I ordered such a great burrito that I didn't have anytime to enjoy it.

"Im sorry that I ruined our whole day." I sighed, as we walked back to the car. "I meant for today to be amazing since it's finally just me and you. And over the month I was gone I missed talking to you."

"Hey don't beat yourself up to it. We can do this another time, but right know I know it's best to go home and talk about this to Cameron." He suggested as he rubbed my back, as he hopped into the car and drove off.

This rest of the car ride was silent. I was trying to think about what I was going to say, and that i was going to do when I see my father. I was just hurt, and I need to figure out all the questions that I am going to throw at him. But mainly I think I just need Cameron right now.

A couple minutes later we arrived at the house. I slowly got out of the car, and walked inside.

"Hey guys. Where's Cameron?" I asked softly.

"In his room..Are you ok?" Matthew asked.

"Not really but thanks." I said as I walked up the steps.

I breathed out than knocked on his door.

"Cam it's me. I really need to talk to you. I don't know how to handle this situation, and I just need you. I really do need you, and I know you're upset but just for the rest of the day don't be upset. You can hate me all you want tomorrow, but not right now." I said as I started crying, "Cameron please."

He quickly opened the door, and hugged me. I felt safe in his arms, like nothing around us could hurt us. It was an amazing feeling.

He walked inside his room with me, and closed the door.

"What's wrong?" He asked, as he wrapped my eyes.

"My dad." I simple said, "He called me today, and asked if he and I could meet later on today, and I stupidly decided to say yes because I just want answers. And so we are meeting later today, and I want but mainly need you to come with me."

He nodded his head, and held me close. "Of couse baby. And I don't hate you I was just a little stressed this morning."

I nodded.

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About an hour later my dad called again, and gave me details on where to met. He wanted to meet on the beach, and then possibly go out to eat which i declined because he doesn't need to get used to me. I still hate him although I agreed to see him.

Me and Cameron hopped out of the car, and walked along the beach. I started to get nervous. What does he look like? Do I look like him? Does he actually care? A lot of thoughts flowed through my mind which started giving me anxiety.

"No no no." I said as I stopped walking, "I can't do this."

Cameron grabbed my hands, and looked me in the eyes. "You aren't in this alone. I am here with you, and I will ask questions if you can't. Come on." He said, and started walking again.

I took some deep breaths, and I brushed my dress off. I was trying really hard to keep the tears in, and I have no idea when they'll just flow out.

"Sophia?" A tall figured man stood up, and called for me.

I just stood there. I look so much like him.

"D-Dad?" I called, and me and Cameron walked up to him.

"Baby I am so sorry." He said.

"No you aren't." I scoffed, "If you were actually sorry you would've came back years ago. You wouldn't have let two of your kids go years without know who there dad was."

"You're upset." He sighed, "I really am sorry."

"Well no shit I am upset. I went into a three year depression because of you. I didn't trust boys because of you. I had no confidence because of you. I basically lost myself because of you! I wanted to give up on life so many fucking times. I attempted suicide more than once because I thought I didn't have anyone. Mom was always at work, and you were never there." I said as I started to cry, "You left because you didn't think you could handle being a father. You made my mom struggle to keep me and Mike safe. She worked three jobs, and we still struggled. She had a lot of weight on her back, and she will always be my hero. You are just some guy that had sex with my mom, and than left her. That's who I look at you as."

I had to let that all out, and it felt amazing to get it all out. After years, and years of boiling anger inside of me just getting hotter, and hotter I was finally able to get it all out.

"Give me another chance please." He begged.

"I have given you plenty." I cried out. Cameron grabbed my hand, "I waited every night when I was younger think you were going to come back, but unfortunately you didn't. I gave to much hope for you that you never deserved. I hate you. This will be out first, and final talk. I don't want to hear from you, or ever see you. You wanted to leave my life one time, and you should just stay gone. We're gone here. Goodbye Ryan."

I started to walk away. I felt horrible, and good at the same time. I was just upset at the fact that he thinks I will accept him back into my life. He is pathetic.

"Sophia baby slow down." Cameron yelled to me.

I turned around, "I am so hurt!" I throw my arms up in the arm and cried. "He can't just think that me seeing him after plenty of years would convince me to let him back into my life. He is insane!"

Cameron grabbed my, and pulled me into a hug. "Yes baby I know. Did you get everything you wanted to say out?"

I shook my head, "I wanted to use some serious curse words, but I didn't want to hurt him too bad. I mean in the long run unfortunately he is my father, but he is also a dickhead."

Cameron kissed my forehead, "Come on baby. Let's get home."

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WOOHOO SOPHIA I THINK WE CAN ALL SAY NOW TBAT SHE SLAYS BC SHE DOES. she deserves the crown

so I know you all are confused about sophia and Camerons relationship and trust me I am too but as of right now they aren't together!! he is just being really sweet to her

but be prepared for a lot of plot twist lol idk when I will finish this story anyways love you guys bye💗