Falling In Love ≫ c.a.d

Chapter 25

I sat there and cried, I want the pain to go away, I don't like this feeling.

"Soph, is that really what you want to do? Just open the door, let me in." I heard Taylor call from outside, I never really thought he was this type of guy.. "Sophia, open up." He said while knocking on the door, "It's just me."

I got up and opened the door, slowly. I saw Taylor standing there with his hands through his hair, when he saw my he flinched.

I started shaking, here we go again with the panic attacks.

"Come here." He said as he noticed me shaking and opened his arms. I practically ran into his arms and dug my head into his chest and started crying again. "Did you do it?" He asked.

I shook my head, "No." I mumbled into his shirt.

"Soph, you got to stop. You don't need to hurt yourself you are perfect the way you are! Your beautiful, sweet, funny, and have an amazing personality. I like the always smiling and laughing Sophia, not the constantly crying and feeling like she needs to give up. I want you to feel good about yourself." He whispered into my ear.

My breathing started getting heavier and heavier and I started getting light headed, "Help." I yelled softly as I hit Taylor's back.

"Oh shit." He said as he pulled me out of the hug and laid me on the bed, he ran into my bathroom and got a cold towel and laid it on my head, "Breathe in and out slowly, but fill up all the way."

I did as he said to and my breathing seemed to dye down, "Thank you Tay, I love you." I managed a weak smile to him and grabbed his hand and squeezed it.

"I love you too Soph, just promise me you'll be safe? I don't want to loss you babe." He said as he kissed my cheek, I shivered. Why?

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I woke up to the sound of music coming from downstairs, and my head was throbbing. I grabbed my phone to check the time, 10:15pm, why'd I sleep for so long?

️I went downstairs and saw a lot of people, everywhere. Is this a party? Why? What the hell?

I walked into the living room and saw Cameron chatting with some girl who looked like she had nothing on basically. I didn't want to stress about it, my head hurts way to much.

Than someone tapped on my shoulder causing me to turn around fastly, almost loosing my balance. "Yeah?" I said as I looked at Taylor and Matt.

"How are you feeling?" Matt asked.

"I could be better, but now I feel worst because-" I said as I turned around and pointed at Cameron and whoever that girl was.

"Oh no." Taylor and Matt whispered, "Soph we are are sorry." Taylor said.

I shrugged, "I don't care right now, he isn't my worries right now, just who is that?"

Taylor and Matthew just looked at each other, and than at me and than back at each other.

"You guys, stop fucking around and tell me!" I yelled as I started worrying, what is Cameron doing?

"Sophia, I am sorry....That's Madison, Madison Beer." Matthew said.

"Who the fuck is that?" I asked, I have never heard of that name? Why is she fucking here?

"They used to have a thing, because you came along." Taylor added.

"Great, this is fucking great." I sighed, and tied my hair into a bun.

I walked over to where Cameron and Maddy? Madelyn? Whatever her name was and stood right next to them.

"Really? You never know your breaking point do you? I loved you, why do you keep hurting me! I am done ok? Done! so don't want to talk to you ever, leave me alone understand?" I yelled as Cameron looked at me with a shocker face, "I am tired of you constantly hurting me, and me constantly giving you a second chance." I added.

"Sophia wait I can exp-"

"I don't want to hear it." I said interpreting him. "Leave me alone." I said as I walked away and headed to the kitchen.

I looked through the cabinets and found a bottle that was labeled Vodka, well this shouldn't be bad huh?

I opened it and drunk a lot of it, as it burned going down my throat.

"Time to fuck shit up." I whispered myself and took another drink or more.