Falling In Love ≫ c.a.d

Chapter 51

there will be smut in this so if you can't read just skip over this chapter(((((:

warning I am not really good at smut and this is my first time writing but I've read a lot so I might know a little something): so pls don't get mad!!!

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"Oh you'll regret teasing me soon babygirl." He smirked, and than grabbed my face.

I pushed him so that he was laying on his back, and I was on top of him. He slide is hands up my shirt and played with my bra straps. We broke from the kiss, and he pulled off my shirt and I pulled off his. We continued to kiss. Soft moans escape his mouth as I kissed around his neck, and collarbone which made me know that was his weak spot so I continued to kiss there.

I started kissing from his chest, towards his lower abs. And than started playing with his belt that I really wanted to go off.

"Pants." I said, and he pulled them down. He than told me to take off my leggings, so I did.

"Did you wear those bra, and panties for me?" Cameron smirked.

"No. Had nothing else in there." I smirked back.

"That's it." He said though his teeth.

He flipped us around making me be on the bottom, and him on the top. He unhooked my bra, and cupped my breast into his large hands. He begin kissing down my stomach making his way towards my panties. My breathing hitched as he kissed the rim of my underwear. He slowly pulled them down, and kissed me down there. While going back, and forth of licking and kiss he put two fingers inside and started pulling in and out.

"Fuck." I breathed out. I grabbed locks of his hair with one hand, and covered my mouth with the other - I didn't want the boys to hear us.

Once he finished he lifted up, and I quickly pulled down his underwear. He turned our position so he was now laying down - figuring out he knew what was going to happen. So I grabbed his package, and started stroking it upwards and downwards. I would speed up, and than slow down which started driving Cam insane.

"Soph." He breathed out, "Let's do it."

I stopped. I don't know if I was completely ready for this. I mean we aren't even together, and I don't want to be fuck buddies but looking at him right now makes me want to just have sex with him.

Cameron stood up and laid me on my back. He grabbed a small package, and unwrapped the condom than putting it on.

"Are you ready?" He asked.

I closed my eyes, and breathed out. "Yes." I said while I kept my eyes close.

He pushed inside of me, and started pushing in and out of me. He started getting faster, and faster making my back arch. I started breathing heavier, and I held a grip on the bed sheets.

"Tell me if I am hurting you baby." He managed to say as he kissed me softly.

I was unable to respond to him since he started going really fast. Moans started escaping my mouth, so I started biting my lip so everyone didn't hear me.

"Fuck. Fuck. Fuck." I managed to say.

Cameron stopped, and pulled out. He crawled up to me.

"I love you." He breathed out. I slowly opened my eyes finally, and turned towards him. "I am deeply in love with you, and i feel like a complete idiot for leaving you like I did. Any guy would, and should be lucky to have you."

I smiled slightly. I didn't know how to respond, so I simply sighed.

"I know you don't know how to respond to that. You always sigh whenever you have no words." He chuckled, "I just feel like a dumb ass for making you hurt the way you did, and letting you hurt the way you were. Whenever you are hurt - It makes me hurt. I don't want to hurt you anymore babygirl."

I quickly climbed out of the bed, and wrapped the cover over my naked body. I couldn't handle this anymore - my emotions. "I can't handle this." I breathed out.

"What did I do?" He asked, as he sat up in the bed.

I stared out of the window, "You honestly don't know how badly you hurt me. Cameron I practically starved myself for weeks, and the only way I would be able to sleep was by crying myself to sleep. It was like I went straight back into depression, and I haven't felt that way for awhile - since my dad."

I didn't want to fight especially not right now since we just had sex, but the more he kept saying these nice, innocent things about me the more I felt like I was going to have a panic attack.

"Sophia that was the old me. I have changed." He sighed.

"The old you was literally two month ago! You can't change completely within two months. I just can't handle all this anxiety. It's making me feel like I am going insane, and a shit load of pain comes shooting at me." I said as I turned around, and sat back down on the bed. "I didn't want to talk about our relationship earlier because I don't want to get hurt again. If we date again the fame will surely get to you, and I'll get left again. I honestly don't think I can handle that. To be honest I feel like if I have to go through that again I'll have to be hospitalized."

"What are you saying? You couldn't possibly have came all the way back here to not start another relationship with me. You didn't come all the way back here to fight with me. Did you?" He said in a shaky voice. I knew this was going to get to him.

"That's not what I am saying. I am saying I don't want to jump directly into a relationship with you. I don't trust you honestly like I did before, so maybe we should just start over? Pretend like nothing happened before, and that we are starting over as friends. It's for the best we need to caught up on things, and we need to get to know each other again." I suggested, "It's honestly for the best Cam. I wouldn't have suggested it if it wasn't."

"Only one thing." He said.

"Name it."

"Can we still cuddle? I don't want to not be able to at least have you next to me every night." He said.

"Sure. Just not every night. This will work I promise." I said with a slight smile.

He intertwined our hands together. It felt like old times which made all the memories flood back, and play all over again. From the first time that I met him, when he kissed my scars, swimming together, going through my dramatic attacks together, and everything else.

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you guys I am super sorry it took me forever to get this up!!!! the smut was coming out so badly and it still sucks but whatever I am sorry I will soon get better at smut

and the ending of this is super bad I just throw something together bc I know a lot of you are waiting for this chapter and I felt completely bad for taking forever

school and my life are getting very busy and its very hard to have time to type and get chapters updated for you guys but I am trying as hard as I can i will figure something out I promise (:

hopefully you enjoy this crappy chapter I am not happy with it :/ but whatever