Falling In Love ≫ c.a.d

Chapter 56

We've been here for about two hours, and I can't remember how many drinks I've had, but I know it was enough to make it difficult for me to talk, and walk. But really, who cares? This is going to be a great night.

I looked around for the boys, and I spotted Cameron. Cameron wasn't by himself - He was with a girl. With that she was sitting in his lap basically wanting to get in his pants.

I literally just had sex with him, and he is already trying to get with someone? What the fuck.

I didn't know if I should walk out? Ignore the problem and dance? Drink? Or find Shawn or Matthew? If I walked out i wouldn't know where to go, and I am not capable of walking for miles right now. So I think I should just drink. I guess I am fucking shit up tonight - Let the fun begin.

I had the bartender set out shots that went across the whole bar. Everyone stepped back to watch me take them all at once like this was a challenge, but no I was just upset and wanted to drink.

I started from the beginning, and grabbed one shot, and drunk it down. I continue to do that until the last shot. I don't think that was a completely good idea, but part of me doesn't care.

"Woohoo!!" I yelled, and chuckled a bit. "Ok I need to find that dick Cameron."

I stumbled all the way to where Cameron was sitting around talking to some girl being the jerk he is, and has always been.

"You're a complete asshole." I slurred pointing at him while rocking back and forth trying to keep my balance. "You can't just have sex with him less than 24 hours ago, and than decide to fuck around with another girl. You're a pig, bye."

I turned around, and back over to the bar. If I don't sit down now I might fall over. I just needed to get my mind together before I move again.

I looked around for Shawn, and I saw him with a girl. I didn't want to interrupt, but I think it's best that we all go home.

I walked over to Shawn, and tapped on his shoulder.

"We all need to go. Text everyone." I softly said. He nodded, and did so.

We all walked outside, and got into the car. Shawn drove us home because he usually doesn't drink, and I sat in the front because I didn't want to have to look at Cameron.

"I found the hottest girl of my life." Gilinsky announced. Him, Carter, Nash, Cameron, and Johnson talked about it in the back.

I looked at Shawn, and I started to cry. I knew sooner or later this was going to happen. The drinking, and Cameron situation was starting to actually get to me, and I couldn't handle it anymore.

"The girl I was with was so sexy. She was so close to getting me to take her home tonight." Cameron said. That hit me.

"You asshole." I muttered under my breath.

"Everyone stop fucking talking. I don't want to hear anyone talk for the rest of the car ride understand?" Shawn snapped.

I tried to stop my crying, and nobody talked.

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We arrived home, and I took off my shoes before climbing out of the car. I stumbled into the house, and than Matthew helped me get upstairs into my bed. As soon as I hit my bed - I started crying.

Matthew tried to ask what was wrong, but he knew I wasn't going to answer, so he walked out.

After that I fell asleep.

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The glare of the sunlight kept hitting my face even when I would try to move around to block it. I groaned, and slowly got out bed. I looked a mess. I still had on my dress from last night, and my makeup was smudged from sleeping, and crying. I quickly hopped into the shower.

After I got out I brushed my hair, and left it at that. I threw in some black leggings, and a tie-dye sweatshirt.

I walked downstairs, and grabbed a cup of water.

"We need to talk." Cameron said as he came walking down the steps quickly.

"No we don't. There isn't anything to talk about." I said, as I started making a fruit bowl. Yum!

"Stop being mad at me would you? I am sorry for anything I did last night. You know how I get when I drink, and when I get angry." He said as he came up to me, and grabbed on to my waist.

"How many chances do you think I am going to get you until you realize that you've fucked up, and that I am done? Cameron you can't keep putting me through this stuff, and than use your charms to get me to forget everything. It doesn't work like that." I sighed as I pulled out of his grip, and finished making my fruit bowl.

"You can't keep walking away from our problems. I am sorry. I can barely handle us not actually being together, and now seeing you everyday is strange. Only because I have the urge to just grab you're face right now, and never let you go." Cameron said, as he looked me directly into my eyes.

Oh did I want to just make-out with him right then and there. He is literally everything to me, and if I wasn't so scared to date him again - I would be in that relationship that I want right now. I just don't know if I'll be able to handle this relationship again, because what if he hurts me again? I just wouldn't know what to do anymore if that happened. It's seems like us having a relationship is difficult than others.

I grabbed my fruit bowl, and than grabbed Cameron's hand. I wanted upstairs to my room, and Cameron had no idea what I was about to do.

I told him to lay down, and handed him the fruit bowl. I turned on Netflix, and played the first season of Glee.

I climbed into bed, and laid against Cameron, and grabbed my fruit bowl.

"Does this mean you aren't mad at me anymore?" Cameron asked while taking some strawberries.

"No this just means I want someone to watch Glee with me." I chuckled.

"Seriously?" Cameron frowned.

"Of course not. I am not mad at you anymore just stoping being an asshole Dallas." I smiled towards him, and turned back to the television.

"Alright Mrs. Dallas." He said. I turned around, and he smirked.

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OMG I FINALLY UPDATE AGAIN!! jk it really hasn't been that long honestly idk how long ago it was maybe like a week. i am literally listening to ed sheeran rn bc he is literally life and he is coming to indiana (where I live) in June and I want to goooo!!

anyways hopefully you enjoyed this crappy update. till next time :*