Falling In Love ≫ c.a.d

Chapter 38

I woke up to Cameron not laying next to me which was unusual. I tied my hair into a ponytail, and dragged my body downstairs.

"Hey Soph can I talk to you?" Matt asked.

"Sure." I said as I took a seat next to him on the couch, "What's up?"

"So you know how summer is over in a week?" He asked. I nodded. "What are you and Cameron going to do? Me and the boy have to go in tours, and Cameron is making a movie. What's going to happen?"

I haven't really figured any of this out. I wanted to spend as much time and possible with Cameron, and we've been having so much fun that the time flew pasted me.

"I-I don't know." I said softly, "I guess I'll go home?"

"You figure this out alrighty?" Matthew said as he rested his hand on my knee for a second, than got up.

I needed to find Cameron. We need to talk about this, if he is leaving for the movie, and will be on set all the time...what about me?

"Cameron." I said as I saw him on his computer in his room.

"Hey baby." He smiled at me, and patted the bed to where I can sit.

"Can we talk?" I said as I bit my bottom lip trying to not cry.

"Oh yeah sure." He said as he sat his laptop aside. "What's up?"

"Well, Matthew and I talked about how this summer is about to end, and how you are about to shot your movie, and go places with the boys...what is going to happen between us?" I said as I looked down.

"We will figure this out later. Let's just spend the rest of this time together."

"We can't just forget about it! I need to know if I am going to be missing the boy of my life like crazy for months, or if I need to get a schedule of the times where I can visit you." I said angrily. "I just love you so much, it hurts."

"Sophia I love you too. This is why we should just wait, I don't want to think about this now." Cameron signed.

"Fine." I groaned as I got up and left. I just wanted to know what I was going to have to do. I love him and I don't want to have to not see him for months.

I walked outside, and stood by the ocean. The water was so peaceful, and calming. I walked closer to the water, and sat down. The water starting hitting my feet, and I than started thinking about me and Cameron. Leaving him will hurt so badly. I started crying.

Maybe we can work something out? But he'll be shooting with Andrea Russet, and she is drop dead gorgeous. He'll instantly fall in love with her I bet.

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I sat on my bed with ice-cream and watched Gossip Girl. After crying this seemed to make me a little happier. I haven't seen Cameron all day since our disagreement, and I wished we could figure all this out.

But right now my main focus was on Chace Crawford, he's a total babe.

"Sophia?" I heard someone call. Then Cameron came, and sat on the bed.

"Oh. H-hey." I said.

"We need to talk.." He said, I nodded. "I think we need to break up."

My heart began to start beating very fast. This can't be happening.

"We - What?!" I said.

"I am shorting soon, and you have to get back home before college. We will be so far from each other, and we won't be able to talk very much. It's for the best. The boys and I have been talking about this all, and I know I can't stay committed to a long distance relationship."

"Commitment?! We have to break up, because you can't figure out how to keep you dick in your pants!?" I yelled.

Cameron shrugged. This can't be happening. Not today, not ever. We love each other, or atleast that's what I thought..

"I am sorry Soph. After November we can met up, and talk about getting back together. Now we just need a little break." Cameron said.

"November? How am I suppose to not talk to you, or see you, or have a relationship with you until November?! That's like fucking five months from now." I yelled.

"Sophia I can't do anything about this, Im sorry." Cameron signed.

"No you aren't. You are leaving me because you want to get laid with some girl you find hotly attractive. Go get laid! Get someone pregnant while you're at it, so I can have a reason to not hurt anymore!" I yelled, "Wow. I am just an idiot for thinking you cared anymore."

"Would you stop saying I didn't care! I did, I fucking love you Sophia. I just want to end this in good terms, so we can still have a friendship." He yelled.

"Than why does it hurt so badly?" I asked, "You told me you were never going to hurt me again, but guess what?" I asked.

"What?" He sighed.

"You hurting me. And it sure as hell feels very painful." I said as I got up and walked into my room.

I grabbed a pillow, and crawled into a ball. This is the worst.

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author's note : well you all probably hate me now

i literally cried while making this chapter, and picturing cameron and sophia next to each other fighting was hard

but this is just adding more drama for this story while i love but I already miss sophia and cameron's relationship..they were total goals.

x-mas is soon and I can't wait but anyways ttyl