Falling In Love ≫ c.a.d

Chapter 39

"He broke up with me." I said softly as I cried in Shawn's lap, "He said you guys were telling him how hard it will be to have a girlfriend while you guys tour and make movies, and other stuff."

Shawn sighed, "I am so sorry."

I shrugged, "It hurts."

"What does?" Shawn asked as he played with my hair.

"My heart. Feels like it like explored, and shattered everywhere." I said as I put my hand over the area where my heart is suppose to be, "See it doesn't even feel like it's beating. I am dying! Shawn I am fucking dyin - "

"Yeah. Okay, that's enough." He interrupted me to say, "Everything will be ok." He added.

"No it won't. When you are dying nothing feels ok until you aren't dying anymore. I feel like I can't even function. I wanna go to the club. How about we all go?" I suggested with a slight shrug, "Even Cameron.."

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We arrived to the club, and got out. I tugged on my very tight dress to pull it down as it rose while I was sitting. I wanted to drink away the pain which probably wouldn't be the best idea, but who cares. I wore a dress and four-inch high heels. My hair was wavy, and I put on the usual when it came to makeup.

"Sophia want me to hang with you? You know to make sure your safe.." Matthew asked me. Cameron glared at him than to me.

"No. I'll be fine! Go have fun ok? I'll be in the same room as all of you, so if you want to check on me, or dance with me you'll be able to find me." I smiled weakly. Seeing that Cameron was staring at me wasn't easy for me to handle.

"Are you sure you don't want to go back home and change your dress? Boys are going to try and touch you while you wear that.." Shawn said strictly.

"Shawn." I whined, "I'll be fine."

We all than walked in, and I went straight to the bar. I took a seat at the stool, and waited for the waitress to come to me.

"What would you like beautiful?" He asked with a smile.

I smiled, "Can I have something that's amazing? Just please don't make it something that might kill me." I chuckled.

"I gotcha, and I would never try to hurt a beautiful girl like you." He blushed, "Or anyone of course." He said nervously.

He handled me a drink, and it tasted amazing. It was kind of strong, but I could take it.

"Can I have another one?" I asked.

He handed me two more.

"Mmhh. This is amazing! Remember me, so when I come back you already know what I want. Alright?" I smiled as I got up and walked to the dance floor.

I started dancing. Not great, but the way I wanted to. I didn't care if anyone saw me. Matter of fact I know everyone was staring at me, but I truly didn't care. Today was my night to get the pain away from me, or at least for tonight. Tomorrow I can cry as much as I wanted to, just not tonight.

"Sophia." I heard someone call from behind me. My version was blurry for a second causing me to stumble in my heels, but the person who called my name grabbed my hip to make sure I didn't fall. Once my version came back I saw that it was Cameron. Great.

"Oh.. uh.. hey?" I said trying to move out of his grip.

"Are you ok?" He asked.

"Are you asking my heart, or asking me since I nearly almost fell?" I said stubbornly. I wanted him to figure out that i was hurting badly inside because of him.