Falling In Love ≫ c.a.d

Chapter 24

Probably a sad chapter guys sorry(": sometimes things just gotta be sad you know. What the fuck am I talking about aushdusndsibssidbdusb ok. bYE😛

Sophia;

I sat in my room for almost the rest of the day, I took a couple hour nap and I caught up on Finding Carter and watched a couple of episodes of American Horror Story but I knew I needed to get out of this room sooner or later.

A couple of times someone would knock on the door and ask to talk but I would decline. All of the boys made tweets about it, causing the whole fandom tweet me about answering the door to one of them, or to talk to all of them which got kind of annoying so I shut my phone off.

I climbed out of my bed and walked to my bathroom and looked at myself. I looked horrible. My makeup was smeared from crying, my hair was a mess from the nap but I wasn't going to fix it, I don't care right now.

I took off my shorts and put on sweats and than opened my door, and headed downstairs slowly.

I stood in the kitchen as I saw all of them laying either on the floor or on the couch. I wasn't completely sure how this would turn out, but I mean we got to get it over with.

"Um." I said as they all whipped their heads towards me, "Can we all talk?" I said as I put pieces of my hair behind my ears that feel out of the bun.

"Yeah." Carter said as he turned off the TV, and I took a sit on the floor.

"Sophia, I am sorry. I was just upset and I happened to take it out on you and I shouldn't have." Gilinsky said really fast.

I looked down, I knew I was going to cry again. These boys make me so emotional for some reason, and I don't know why. I sat there and cried, while I kept my head down. "I just feel like I am the reason why all this drama is starting? I do every possible thing to piss someone off or causing a fight." I looked up at everyone and sighed, "I am sorry, this is the side I never wanted anyone to see. I always have this feelings where I don't feel like I belong so I try my hardest to make myself fit it, but now I have taken it too far and I am messing up everything."

"Sophia you haven't ruined anything. You are just hurting yourself, you are saying this is all your fault when it isn't. We all have a part in these problems not just you." Nash said as he ran his hands through his hair, "Sophia you have brought this family closer than its ever been." He added.

"It sure doesn't feel like it. I hurt Cameron so many times being here, Matthew and Samantha problem happened because of me. Gilinsky's problem because of me. Taylor's problem because of me.. What else am I going to do." I said as tears started streaming down my face, "Trying my hardest not to cut myself but everything is failing and I cant handle it anymore. I hate hurting you guys."

"If it wasn't for this fandom, I would be broken right now. I pretty much had nobody before these guys! I suffered with depression for a while, and every since these guys came along and all the fans I found out I can do this, I am not alone." Cameron said, "Sophia, I just want you to be happy and to be able to stop feeling bad about yourself..we all do." He said while they all looked at me and nodded their heads.

"Its hard. I have tried, my life cant take being happy. Soon I will be leaving you guys to go back home and having to suffer seeing if my dad shows back up, and dealing with school which is more depression, I have to deal with Samantha and my mom. I can't handle this, I want to give up." I said as I got up and ran back upstairs.

I opened my bedroom door and ran to the bathroom, and looked under the sink.

"Sophia, stop! Do not do it, you are a fighter!" I heard one of them say, I sat on the floor and cried.

I wanted to give up, badly. But I needed to stay strong?

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suckish update yah i know sorry. I have been really busy and I don't have a lot of time recently. I will be back on my regular schedule soon, but no promises.

I am very unpredictable, if you haven't figured that out yet.

Next chapter (whenever that'll be) will be better, for sure!