Falling In Love ≫ c.a.d

Chapter 57

Me and Cameron cuddled throughout the whole day. He would play with my hair, or play with my fingers or I'd play with his hair, or play around with his fingers. They were just so long it was odd. We watched all the seasons of Glee in Netflix, and some songs I sung along with Cameron would record me, and post them which made me a little nervous. But overall Cameron and I had a great time.

"Can we go out to eat?" Cameron suggested.

I shot a look at him, and tilted my head a little. "It's like 1 in the morning..."

"Yeah I know, but I am hungry and I've been in this house and this room with you all day eating off all the junk you brought up here, but now I am feeling chipotle, and I want to spend more time with you and not go alone. Coming?" He said as he got up.

I smiled a bit, "Yeah just let me change - I have stains on this shirt."

He nodded, and walked out the room. I threw on my blue Victoria Secrets shirt, and put on a pair of Uggs. I grabbed my shoulder-bag purse, and put some money in it, and grabbed my phone. I also ran my hands throughout my hair, and headed out my room.

I walked downstairs to met up with Cameron, and we walked to his car.

"Can I ask you a curious question?" He asked, as we pulled off.

I nodded.

"Do you ever think we will get back together?" He bit his lip, and focused his eyes on the road.

"Yeah. I still love you Cameron don't think that I've ever stopped. I am just scared, because I can't put myself through getting hurt again. That was the worst time of my life honestly. I have to get my trust back for you since I don't know what to expect out of you anymore. Soon it will happen through." I said as I rested my hand in his leg.

"I feel like a complete idiot for hurting you so badly." He sighed. I brushed my hand against his face. "I shouldn't have done that it was cowardly, and the worst thing I could've ever done to you. Something cowardly that I should've done to you was not remembering to kiss you goodnight, not breaking your heart. I love you." Cameron said as we stopped at a red light, and he looked directly at me. "I really do love you."

I smiled and nodded, "We just have to learn from all of our mistakes that we did while we were dating to improve them for the next time we date. I know you are deeply sorry, and trust me I am trying to forget and forgive but it's like there's a part of me that is still broken is is searching for the other piece." I said, Cameron pulled off when the car behind us honked at us telling us the light was green, but we weren't looking.

He sighed, and nodded his head, "If I could change one thing it would be all the bad things I did to you." He said.

"I know you would. I love you for that."

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We walked inside Chipotle, and ordered. We sat down, and talked a little while stuffing our faces.

"You have a litte - " Cameron pointed to the side of my face. He put his hand on my face, and wiped it off but he kept his hand there. He leaned in closely, and planted a kiss on my lips. We moved around in sync, and it felt magical. I couldn't explain how much I missed these kisses, and nobody can kiss as amazingly as he does. I pulled away slowly, and bit my lip while smiling a little.

"You're so beautiful." Cameron said. "I would marry you in a hot second. You are honestly the person I want to see walking down the isle in an all white dress with the flower girl throwing flowers, and I want to honestly put a ring on your finger. I want to spend the rest of my life with you one day."

My heart stopped beating quickly, because it was so clear on how much Cameron cared for me. "You surely do know how to win a girls heart over Dallas." I chuckled a bit, and smiled.

He smiled, "Honestly I can't believe I am so lucky to have you in my life. Even after all the shit I've put you through you never gave up on me. Next time I promise to treat you like the princess you deserve to be." He said as he intertwined our hands across the table, "You are so beautiful. And you have a beautiful personality. God you are just so beautiful sometimes its hard to take you all in at once."

A tear fell down my cheek, tears of joy - happiness. "I never gave up on you because you never gave up on me. I remember when we actually first met and you kissed my scars, and when you saw my first panic attack, and when I was hospitalized because of Samantha. You were always there for me, and I couldn't ask for anyone better. You have this soft part in my heart that you can't leave even if I tried to get you away." I said.

I love our conversations like this - expressing to each other our feelings, and how we are. Letting go to each other, and being able to not argue. Looking into his brown eyes, and watching him watch me was perfect. He is literally perfect, and has a big impact in my life. I could probably never stop loving him even if I tried really hard. How could I have been so lucky to have such an amazing guy.

"Sorry to interrupt you guys, but we are closing." The waitress awkwardly said.

"Oh yeah. Sorry thanks for letting us in." I smiled as me and Cameron gather out stuff, and threw away our trash. We walked outside, and hopped into the car.

Cameron drove with one hand on the wheel, and the other with out hands still intertwined. He would constantly look at me, than back on the road just to look at me. We just sat in silence soaking in each other's company while watching the city lights brighten. When we arrived at home is when we let go of each other's hands, and we walked upstairs in went into our rooms. I didn't understand were me and Cameron stood because I don't completely know I am ready again. I have like a 80% knowing that I want to get back together, but the other 20% is just questionable.

I climbed into my bed, and pulled the covers over me. I laid there, and thought about Cameron. He was everything I could possibly want in a guy, so I don't know why I can't just date him again. Why Am I So Scared?!

Suddenly I slowly fell asleep.

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idk i tired to make this chapter long bc i feel like some of my chapters are really short and than i take forever to update again so it's not really fair for you guys )))))-; so for now on longer chapters (((((:

i loved the moment cameron and sophia had and i am starting to get feels for them like always

i ship them and i need to come up with a ship name for them

sameron???? idk

enjoy!!!!(: