Hideous

12th Class

Inalis ko ang earphones sa tainga nang mapansin na may taong nakatayo sa harap ng desk ko. Nilibot ko ang tingin at saka ko lang napansin na wala na ang iba.

Was I spacing out again?

Napapabugang binigyan ako ng tingin ng teacher namin sa Literature, mukhang itong naasar at pilit na kinakalma ang sarili.

"Follow me to the faculty" sambit nya.

Tumayo ako saka kinuha ang gamit at tahimik na sumunod dito. Dumiretso sya sa table nya at naupo habang may kinukuha sa folder. Salubong ang kilay ko habang kinuha ang isang papel na inabot nito. It was my testpaper with a mark on it.

"I want you to be honest with me Ms. Yae. Nagcheat ka ba sa exam?" seryoso at madiin niyang tanong.

Hindi ko magawang itungo ang ulo dala ng kakaibang emosyong biglang pumapaibabaw sakin. The testpaper crumpled when I clenched my fist . Here it is again, this feeling that wanted to get loose.

That's it.

Ah? What I am doing? What am I expecting?

Am I expecting to get praise?

No, that's not it. But why I'm even trying? It's pointless and I know it very well. Of course it always gonna be like this. I laughed sarcastically in my head.

I raise my head and give her a blank look. I can't help but to smirk while looking at this trash.

Worthless.

"If I did, do you think I'm going to admit it? Can you use your head a little?" I asked with full of sarcasm.

And that's how she lost her composure. Anger flamed on her eyes, bago pa man sya makapagsalita ay inunahan ko na siyang talikuran. Hindi ko pinansin ang ilang ulit niyang pagtawag sa pangalan ko.

Fuck her!

She can go to hell all she wants. I don't give a fuck. Just because I got a good marks she accused of me cheating. She's insulting me! And she called herself a teacher? Well, fuck her.

Kakalabas ko pa lang ng faculty ng salubungin ako ng mga nakakarinding ingay ng mga walang kwentang estudyante. Nagbubulungan habang nakatitig sa kinaroroonan ko. Nilakumos ko ang hawak na papel at hinagis kung saan.

Fuck them all. Worthless piece of shits.

"Kingina! Hindi ba kayo tatahimik?" sigaw ko.

Mga tangang estudyante wala nang ginawa kundi mangialam ng buhay ng iba.

"Ang kapal din ng mukha mo ano?" sambit ng isang babaeng naglalakad palapit sakin.

"Nakakadiri na nga ang mukha mo pati pag uugali mo isinabay mo pa. You think ikinagaling mo ang pandadaya? You're messed up" she ridiculed me.

"What did you say?" I gritted my teeth.

"Bakit? Hindi ba totoo naman na ikaw ang nagnakaw ng nawawalang testpaper. First time mo bang makapasa ha? Cheater!"

I balled my fist. They are all the same. Fucking morons who always think high of themselves. These people are shits. It will never change. They will never change.

No one?

Is there anyone who have some worth?

Heh! Of course there's none. Lahat sila ay walang pagkakaiba.

Those stares.

Those lies.

The animosity.

"Ms. Santos are you aware of the meaning of your words" a fierce voice from behind made the crowd silent.