Hideous

Semestral Break 3

Agad akong tumalikod sa pinto ng marinig ang pagbukas nito. I heard footsteps so I pretend to be sleeping.

"Kahapon ka pa hindi lumalabas ng kwarto" mahinang sambit niya. I didn't answer. Pangangatawan ko ang pagtutulog-tulugan ko.

"How's your feeling? Masama pa rin ba pakiramdam mo?"

Gusto ko lang naman mapagisa. I need some peace of mind and she's not helping.

"Is this about what happened the other day?"

I know she's referring to the kiss. And damn. I want to curse myself. Why did I let her? I should have pushed her. This not good. If this continue I might go back to my old self.

The foolish one.
No. Not gonna happen.

"Did you hate it?"

Natigilan ako sa tanong nya. Did I hate it? Did I regret it? But that was not forceful. Not terrifying. It's the other way around.

"Do you hate me?"

Hindi ko napigilan ang sariling mapaharap sa kanya.

"Yes. I h-hate your stupidity" I swallowed hard to prevent my voice from cracking.

"I see. I often heard that from you" she said in a low tone wearing a wearily smile. And it hurts. Deep inside. I hate this. I hate seeing her like this.

"Do you want me to leave now?" she asked again. Hindi ako sumagot.

"Lalabas na ako" she weakly said but before she could turn her back on me I hold her wrist.

"I can't sleep" the only words came out from my mouth.

"Gusto mo bang bantayan kita hanggang sa makatulog ka?"

"No"

Binitawan ko ang pulsuhan nya saka tumalikod muli.

"Do whatever you want"

I heard her heaving a sigh. Naramdaman ko ang bahagyang paggalaw ng kama.

"It's only eleven in the morning" she stated and started stroking my hair. I don't have enough sleep this past two days. It's her fault. I can't stop overthinking about the happenings between us.

Hindi na lang ako sumagot. I chose to close my eyes and let her do whatever she's doing. This is strangely comforting.

"Did you ever hear the story of Heloise and Abelard?" she suddenly asked.

"Anong tingin mo sakin? Bata na kailangan ng bedtime stories para makatulog?" I asked in disbelief. Pero mahinang tinawanan lang ako nito.

"A little"

"You're annoying" I said between my yawns.

"Just don't start with a one upon a time shits" I mumbled. I tried to open my eyes pero hinihila na ako ng antok.

"Hmm. One day--

I groaned and she just giggled at my reaction. Tch. Mapang-asar.

She's annoyingly messing with me today.

Dinampot ko ang salamin sa gilid ng mesa at hindi nag-abalang ayusin ang sariling lumabas ng kwarto. May ilang ingay akong narinig habang bumababa ng hagdan.

"Ate Kay!" sigaw ni Adam ng makitang pababa ako.

"What's with the noise?"

"Nag-aayos po kami ng christmas tree" masiglang sagot nito.

Napunta ang tingin ko sa may kalakihang christmas tree na inaayos nila. I raise my brow when this girl who's standing at the side of tree beamed at me. I looked at her suspiciously, why the hell she seems in a good mood? Umupo ako sa tabi ni Lira kung saan nilalabas niya ang mga christmas decor mula sa isang box.