Hideous

37th Class

Napatakip ako ng mata nang masilaw sa liwanag ng ilaw. I blinked twice before roaming my eyes inside the room.

Hospital?

The place I hate the most. I would rather be in my grandfather's basement than here.

"Kish? Kamusta na ang pakiramdam mo?"

Nabaling ang tingin ko kay Arki na mababakas ang pag-aalala sa mukha.

Why she's here?

"Tinakot mo ako. I thought-- I thought" she started crying.

"I'm not died yet so stop crying" I tried to humor but it doesn't work. Mas lalo lang syang umiyak.

"I hate you! Kakasimula pa nga lang ng pagkakaibigan natin balak mo na akong iwanan"

"Kailan pa tayo naging magkaibigan?" I asked raising my brow.

"I hate you!"

I chuckled. I won't accept anyone as my friend. She's not an exemption, but I won't deny she makes me feel better sometimes.

"Are you the one who brought me here?" tanong ko nang makapagpunas na siya ng luha. Para siyang bata.

"Not me. The woman always in your grandfather side, sya ang nagdala sayo dito. Nung nawalan ka ng malay saktong pagdating nya"

Rajah? And she let Arki to stay here? That's strange.

"Umalis din agad siya kaya inutusan nya akong bantayan ka. Grabe ang babaeng 'yun, akala mo kung sino makapag-utos. Don't get me wrong I don't mind watching over you but the way she gave me order is irritating, akala mo kung sino. I want to pull her hair off hanggang walang matira. Iniinis nya ako" she ranted.

"Oh?" the only words I commented.

"What about the field trip? Aside from you sino pa ang nakakaalam na nasa hospital ako?"

Hindi siya agad sumagot, pinag-aralan nya ako kaya bahagya akong nailang.

"I think it's only me"

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag sa narinig.

"I happened to overheard the conversation of the doctor and that girl. Kish? Is your reasons of breaking up with Siren is your heart condition?" she inquired in a serious tone. Nagiwas ako ng tingin at hindi sumagot.

"It's not too late Kish. The doctor said if you undergo operations--

"A 50-50 operations. You want me to gamble my life with that?" sarkastikong tanong ko.

"But--

"I rather live a year and half than than let them decide my end"

"What about your family? What about Siren? Alam nya ba ang tungkol dito? She deserves at least to know the truth"

"I don't wanna hear anything regarding this matter" pagtatapos ko ng usapan.

"Kish naman--

"Leave me alone" anas ko saka tumalikod sa kanya.

I thought it's a simple headache and chest pain. After the incident in auditorium, when I lost consciousness in front of Rajah, the next day I woke up in the hospital. The doctors see complication in my heart and said I need to undergo operation as soon as possible, but they also told me the chances of the success of the said operation. A little mistake might end my life.

I have enough of this. I already accepted my fate. Mapakla akong napangiti. Tanggap ko na naman pero bakit ang sakit sakit pa rin.

Ang daya lang.