Hideous

25th Class

I can hear them. Those sickening rumors and their unpleasant laughs. It's infuriating. I covered my ears but I still can hear it. I'm in the verge of crying again. But I have to suppress it, they may hear me.

"I told you she's a curse. I mean look at her pati boyfriend ng iba inaahas nya"

"The biggest slut ever, even her sister's boyfriend nilandi niya"

That's not true. I'm not a slut. Tumulo ang luha ko nang hindi namamalayan. I'm the victim here but why they are pointing their fingers on me? Wala akong magawa kundi ang magkulong dito sa cubicle at hintayin sila makalabas.

"It's a shame she's pretty pa naman, especially her green eyes"

"Who knows she's using them to seduce guys?"

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig nang makilala ang boses nito. No! They're only avoiding me para hindi madamay, hindi nila magagawang traydurin ako. Because we're friends, right?

"Sinabi mo pa! I know it from the start na may tinagatago syang kalandian, hiding from her good girl image"

"You guys are so mean, hindi ba kaibigan nyo sya?"

I cried silently when I heard familiar voices laughing out loud. No. It's not them! Hindi nila magagawa sakin 'to.

"Of course not. Come on, we're just sucking to her because she's Elise' sister and she happened to be famous with boys" they laughed again.

It's infuriating, sickening, and maddening.

Tears keep strolling down my cheeks. It's suffocating here. Everything was just a lie? But we've been together for years. I thought them as someone I can shared my secrets. We hangout, eat together, and help each other when someone is in need.

"Anyway guys totoo ba? Kayo nagpakalat ng balita tungkol sa pagiging makati nya?"

I froze in my spot. I kept praying for them to denied it but everything falls apart when I heard someone said.

"Yes, serves that whore right" they laughed again.

I lost my ability to think. I can't even feel anything anymore. I wiped my tears, lumabas ako nang cubicle. I saw their shock expression but they hide it right away and smirked at me, belittling me.

"Speaking of whore, nandito lang pala sya" Jane mocked.

I tiredly looked at her. I'm exhausted. Why did I even attend school? Everyday is a hell for me, lahat ng taong nakasalubong ko ay pinagbubulong bulungan ako.

Ah! That's right. I was hoping na babalik ang lahat sa dati, that someone will take my side, someone will believe me. But it didn't happen. Araw-araw palala ng palala. Even some of our teachers are ridiculing me.

Hearing them today made me realize something. It doesn't matter what's the truth. People don't believe the truth, they believe what they chose to believe, they believe people.

Lalagpasan ko sana sila pero hinarangan ako ni Mica at malakas na tinulak kaya napasalampak ako sa sahig. Nangungutyang tumawa ang lahat ng tao sa restroom.

"How disgraceful. You don't deserve your name. Your own father doesn't want you or even look at you, that's how unsightly you are" she insulted.