The weirdest Thing [On Going:)]

15: Regret

Jemia's POV

"morris!!" I heard him but I dont stop walking away..... routine na namin tong dalawa ni Krypton ang maghabulan at sobrang nakakapagod na, I wonder if his getting tired of chasing me??? I hope he did but thinking of him giving up on me, it's tearing my heart, its breaknig me...But I dont have a choice cause either way, masasaktan at masasaktan  din naman ako sa huli so instead of taking risk I have to avoid him maybe that way we can both forget each other, maybe that way it wont hurt a lot....maybe..

"Morris!!" hinila nya ang kamay ko at iniharap ako sa kanya...Dont look at him.. I reminded myself... I bowed my head so that I wont see his face, cause I know when I see his face I know I give up to him and i wont let that happen.... Pinanatili ko ang sariling nakayuko...pero mas mali ata ang ginawa ko dahil sa ang lebel ng tingin ko ay ang kamay nyang may hawak na tatlong rosas..f*ck...

"Morris look at me please.." he pleaded, kulang nalang ay lumuhod sya at magiiyak sa harap ko, sa basag na boses nya palang kasi halata mo ng hirap na hirap na sya...

"Bitaw.." sabi ko sa kanya pero di nya parin ako pinakinggan...

"Dont do this Morris I love you..." Natahimik ako sa sinabi nya.. pero ang pintig ng puso ko ay buong galak na tumutugon sa sinabi nya...Dont give in...I told myself..

"Ang sabi ko bitaw..." sa pagkakataon na yun ay binitawan na nya ako and I dont know why it hurting me..him letting my hand go...This is what youwant..right??

"I just want to give you this" ipinakita nya sa akin ang tatlong bulaklak na hawak hawak nya..I swear that it flutters me..but I have to refuse it...

"Nakita ko yan sa likod ng school, and I remember you so I pick it up" and that strike me...Na kahit na pinahihirapan ko sya, kahit na araw-araw ko syang iniiwasan at sinasaktan hindi nabawasan ni katiting ang ipinapakita nyang pagmamahal sa akin, hindi sya napapagod na mahalin ako....

Tears starts to fall in my eyes...Am I that selfish?? na dahil lang ayokong masaktan ay nakakasakit ako??..I swear that I also wanted him to be mine...but Im too scared that if I give in too much, I fall too deep that I can't stand up anymore...Like my Dad.. I dont wanna end up like him...

"Im sorry...but I can't" I told him and cover my face....Yes Im the most stupid girl, rejecting a guy who was almost close to perfection...Pero kahit hindi pa si Krypton kahit sino ay tatanggi parin ako, ayokong sumugal kung alam kong umpisa palang talo na ako...

"Morris dont cry...please if you dont want this then it's okay...you don't have to cry" he sound so concerned that it made  me cry more....

"Di mo ko naiintindihan!!! Ayoko na pagod na ako!!!" I shouted and punch his chest...

"Yes Morris..I really dont understand why your keep on running away!!! I want to understand." 

"Gusto mo malaman??Kasi ayoko sayo!!!!"I face him and I saw the shock on his face...