who Are You [Todobaku]

he kisses him

3rd pov
the next day

"WHAT" todoroki springs up from his seat immediately regretting it after feeling his wounds rub against each other.

"Calm down, this is just for protection, you'll be able to go back in two weeks time" aizawa said looking over at Eri who was looking a bit frightened by the sudden outburst.

"What the hell" he quickly sat down as he saw her eyes looking at him with fear. He placed his fingers on the bridge on his nose after removing his glasses. He took a deep breath and looked back at his teachers.

It felt like he was an entertainment monkey in a circus. Everyone was looking at his with awe and he hated every second of it.

"Do you not want to go back?"

"N-no I do I- shit I dont know"

"Talk to us"

"Fuck im not going to, theres nothing to talk about, i- i was just surprised"

"So I get that you're okay with it?"

"HES GOING TO LIVE WITH US?!" Eri perks up looking at a smiling hizashi.

"Yes Eri, he's going to stay with us for a bit"

"YOURE GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN AHH"

Todoroki wasnt talking, like at all. Not even the sarcastic comments they were so used to came out of his mouth. He didn't know what to feel he didn't know what to think, he wanted to get out of the room, breath, but he couldn't. His limbs were unresponsive and his mouth was dry.

"Everyone out" suddenly aizawa breaks the silence and stands up. Everyone looks at each other confused to what was happening but non if them questioned it. Soon everyone was out, starting by Guillard and finishing off by a worried hawks.

Now they were alone in the room. Todoroki looking at aizawa in a dreadful way while aizawa tried to look as soft as comforting as he could.

"What's wrong"

"Nothing"

"Cut the crap, you weren't like this a second ago. If you dont want to go back then dont, its just a suggestion if you do want to, no one is forcing you to come back"

"Its not that, fuck I dont know"

"Do you or do you not"

"I do"

"So what's the matter"

"I dont know I've been a villain for two years now, I dont understand how someone can just take me back like that, I dont really deserve it, and the thought of seeing all of 1A or 3A or whatever fucking class they're in now makes me want to curl up in a ball and die. I betrayed you, no matter how many times you tell me I didn't, I did and I know it. Its not like I can take back all the shit I did but id be a coward if I just went back to the hero course after tormenting them for the past years. I cant look at them and say 'yeah I was a villain but aizawa and hawks like me so im a hero again' its all a fog honestly and I have no idea if what im doing, I cant even think straight, im just lost and confused and I dont know what to do"

"Why dont we think of this from my point of view okay? I thought I killed one of my students and lived with the guilt of doing so, so imagine my surprise when I got a call telling me you're alive. At first im not going to lie I didn't trust you. Hawks had to practically beg for me to take you in before the interrogation. You proved yourself multiple times through both that and our little talk in the beginning. Now I believe you are a good person, I had a background check on kai elric and even as a villain you had quite the heroic impact. Now I dont trust people easily let alone let a villain live with me or my family without any authority or supervision other than myself, but you still need to understand that never once did I see you as a villain after the encounter we. I'm not going to force you back in but you will have to spend the two weeks, and after that its up to you to tell me if you wanna stay or not, okay?"

"Okay" it was almost a whisper, he didn't really know what to say or how to act. He just figured if he just kept going he would get to a stop or be safe to an extent "so do you think not coming back and just weeping about the fact that you betrayed us, when, by the way, you didnt, you didnt know who you were or what you were doing, is going to help?"

"I know its not going to help but honestly what is?"

"For starters you can work on the problem, instead of avoiding it by complaining about the, said, problem. I want you to feel okay but you cant do that unless you let go of the idiotic idea that you 'betrayed' us"

"How can I be okay?" he lets out a painfully dry chuckle "There's nothing to be 'okay' about, if you're asking if im okay with moving in then yes, I am thrilled but no sir, for the love of god dont ask me if im okay cause you damn well know what my answer will be. I'm going to the bathroom, tell hawks im not going to attack someone so he doesnt have to follow me"

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Todoroki runs to the bathroom as fast as he could, not caring about any wounds or anyone watching, some people like Linda or hawks tried to stop him but they were quickly shot down by aizawa.

shoto quickly opens a stall, locks the door behind him and dials the one number that crept in his mind even after all the shit happened.

pretty boy

.....ringing.....ringing.....

he desperately needed a normal conversation with the one person who he actually considered someone close to him. he needed someone to hug him to tell him, its okay to tell him that life didn't constantly and painfully suck during every second of every minute of his fucked up and messed up life.

click his heart stopped at that click he snapped out of is daze only to realize the quiver in his rapid breathing.

"SHUT UP SHITTY HAIR FUCK OFF- im almost there asshole, what do you want?"

"hey" todoroki coughed a couple times, desperately trying to take a breath "um w-where exactly"

"what the fuck is up with you?"

"I uh aizawa, he, he came over with uh hizashi and uh Eri and told me shit and I need you and i dont know what to do I cant breath I ju-"

"shit okay where are you?" 

"my floor's bathroom? im in one of the uh the stalls i-"

"stay on the fucking phone ill be there- SHITTY HAIR GO AND TELL THESE EXTRAS TO FUCK OFF FROM HIS ROOM- ill be right there"

"okay"

"okay stay with me what are uh five things you see"

"I dont- I dont fucking know katsuki im busy breathing"

"just name some shit you see im getting there"

"I uh I dont know the door?" his voice breaks, as a tear sheds from his eye, he was scared, no terrified, thinking this was the end for him. 

"great fuck okay, can you name other stuff too im right around the corner"

"the toilet the uh-"

"KAI? IM HERE JUST KNOCK ON THE STALL DOOR" a faint almost inaudible sound comes out from one of the stalls followed by a bunch of pants and wheezes. "hey hey hey can you open the door? can you do that?"

"I- I cant I cant move I-"

"fuck okay, im going to break it okay?"

"WH-WHAT NO DONT-" before shoto could say anything the door breaks down revealing a very unstable curled up boy in the corner of the stall

"hey hey hey okay I need you to breath okay"

"I fucking cant katsuki I cant I tried-"

"Shit okay wait" bakugo says as he shifts his seating postition, now sitting in between todoroki's legs. "Follow my breathing youre okay, aight, just breath like me just"

"I cant i cant do this i think im going to die katsuki, do you know how embarassing dying in a stall would be and i didnt i didnt say sorry to midorya and like to the others im a fuckup tell them i-" heavy sobs and chokes made him stop desperately trying to breath, he felt like death had him in a full embrace, he felt like shit.

"cant believe im going to do this" 

he kisses him.