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"fuck you, jirin. get off me!" he pushed the girl off him.
"why the fuck would you do that? you're a bitch you know?" "what? do you love her or something?"
jeno was seething, his breaths barely left his mouth as he stepped away from the girl.
"yes, actually," her taken aback expression was prompt for him to keep going, "and i'm not going to marry you, jirin, i don't even so much as like you. i hate you, so fucking much."
and with that he took off running after the girl who had left barely a few minutes ago.
"heloise, please wait-" "why the fuck should i wait? go back to jirin or whatever her name is."
he hated that she was mad at him. like actually mad. and not even just mad, she was upset too.
"please, i'm sorry. it's not what it looks like-" "be quiet. could you not have started the sentence in any other way? something that's not so cliche as 'its not what it looks like' or 'its not what you think'. at a time when i need to trust you and you're making it difficult because you're being like this."
"can you just listen at least?" he didn't know how else to get her to just stop for just a second. the rush of the moment was so intimidating, he was scared that one of them would make a rash decision.
he didn't want to shout, so as not to break the tense atmosphere into something that would only be fiercer and scarier. but he wanted to get across to her, to be heard.
tears fell from her eyes and a sudden urge to hold her overwhelmed him. but she stood well away from.
"heloise, please, i only love you. jirin means nothing to me, she forced herself-" "can you please stop speaking?"
frustration started to bubble as he felt as though he wasn't getting through to her. that she was ignoring him purposefully.
"you're not listening to me-" "im jealous! okay? for a long time, i didn't want to admit the reason why i'm jealous because i felt bad."
jeno furrowed his brows in confusion, his forehead crinkling ever so slightly. what was she saying?
"im really jealous. of jirin. of the wind that gets to touch your hair every second, and the sky that gets to see your smile all the time. even the moon is annoying me right now because it gets to kiss your cheek bones and your nose and illuminates your pretty face. and it's not fair because i want to be close to you like that but i can't.
and i can't because i still miss estelle."
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jesus, im writing rn and its so difficult, i feel like everything is becoming a filler but idk, anyway i found a new favourite song
its toxic by ashnikko, FIRST OFF, how the hell does ashnikko make so many bops, like everything hits so hard. but the lyrics of toxic are amazing "you can't stand to see me shine, better buy a visor, you don't ever cross my mind, whats a sheep to a tiger? on ur horse so high, swear to god im higher. now u begging for a dime, imma throw u a fiver"
idk im so bored tbh all i've been doing is reading and writing andi still made so little progress :(( pray for me yall
