The Rebound

Joseph

HOW MUCH MORE AM I GONNA LOSE I FUCKING LOST EVERYTHING. MY MOM,MY FAMILY EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING! THEH THINK I AM GONNA PLAY HAPPY FUCKING JOSEPH THEY THINK IT IS JUST A SCRIPT IT IS NOT LIKE THAT. NOT AFTER THE WAY I GREW UP. FUCK ME I NEED A DRINK!

"JOE WAIT"Jon shouted as I slammed open the door to my locker me room

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT LEAVE ME ALONE?!"

"JOE PLEASE MAN!"

"PLEASE WHAT PLAY HAPPY JOE HUH?"

"No just calm down please I know your past was fucking tough on you alright"

"JUST FUCK OFF!"I said slamming the door in his face.

I need space from everyone hell the world. I don't wanna live. What is there for me to live for. I haven't got any family any place to call home. No friends.Just a fucking clone of my dad. I know my mom is ashamed of me I know that so bad. I can't bare to know that I knew it's the truth. I'm nothing just Joseph Anoa'i FUCKING IDIOT! FUCKING JOSEPH ANOA'I WHO IS NOTHING BUT A FUCKING BIPOLAR ASS FUCKER WHO IS AN ASSHOLE AND DOES NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYONE BUT HIMSELF. I FUCKING DO NOT WANNA BE HERE I WANNA DIE SO FUCKING BAD.

*Knock Knock*

"FUCK OFF"I yelled

"Joseph come on it's me"I got up as I recognised the voice Tamina

"What do you want?"I said opening my door

"Please say you've been seen by a doctor your back looked awful"She said with a worried look

"Thanks for the reminder"I huffed

"Joseph we are family you need to look after yourself"

"Family-family nah you have a family I don't"

"Joseph you are my family wether you like it or not I care about you"

"Well the rest of our family thinks I'm a fucking outcast"I said annoyed

"The twins don't they love you uce"

"Jonathan and Joshua that is bullshit"

"It's not you need to come home to us"

"Home this is my home Mina I don't belong with the others I don't I'm my fathers fucking clone"

"Joe family is what you need. You'll be less lonely and-"

"Don't lecture me please"I sighed

"I'm not I'm stating facts Mr"She said folding her arms

"Look I'll think about ok"

"You said that the time before and the time before that and before that"

"Look Mina I just I like being on my own ok I have been my entire life haven't I?"

"Joseph you weren't alone"

"I was and you know I was"

"Joseph"

"Look my past has made me this way no one will change me not now not ever. It's better this way me on my own I can't hurt anyone or anyone anymore then I already do"

"Your not better on your own Joe and you know that"

"Mina just drop it okay"

"Fine you do you uso"She walking off.

"I don't need family. Never have never will"I muttered to myself.

I walked back inside man my fucking back was hurting. I looked in the mirror the swelling worse then before.

"Fuck me"

I looked into the mirror and saw an outline of a person behind me. I turned and saw Jon

"Still haven't gone to see a doctor?"Jon said

"I'm fine"

"The look on your face says otherwise Joe"

"Look I'm okay it just stings"I admitted

"Come on Anoa'i let's get you a doc"

"Nah I fucking hate them I'm good"

"Your scared?"

"No I just-it makes me-never mind just I'm good ok?"I said trying to hide the fact is yes I am afraid of doctors after what happened to my mum I couldn't and can't trust them again.

"Come on I'll go with you ok?"

"Ugh fine if this gets you off my case"

"Sure will"

I gently placed a tank top over my upper body and scars. Before locking up my room and walking with Jon. I hadn't seen Colby since our argument I knew I'd lose it if I saw him. I'd wanna rip him to shreds. Fuck me.

I walked to the doctors office.

"Hello Joseph how are you?"He spoke to me

"Good my back fucking hurts"

"You took a good few hefty whacks from a steel chair no wonder"He chuckled

"Can you help with the pain?"

"Yeah sure can do here"He said handing me some pain killers

"Take one when the pain kicks in"

"Alright thanks doc"

I walked out of the office

"See Jooeee isn't as bad as you think"Jon said slapping my shoulder

"FUCK JON!"I shouted

"Sorry I forgot"

"FUCKING UGH"I said lunging over a table as a shooting pain shot up and down my back. I opened the pill bottle and took a pill out.

"Sorry bro"

"Try be careful next time man"I chuckled a little