Kpop AMBW Imagines

Jeongguk

TW:// Suicide

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I tossed the pills back - not even wincing at the harsh way they went down my throat . I laid down on the bathroom floor with my phone in my hand - continuously playing one of his voice recordings to myself.

"I love you y/n so much . You mean the world to me . I can't wait for our next date , my love . It feels as if I can't live without you ".

The message was from years ago & it was thirty minutes after we went on our first date together that he proclaimed his love for me.

I had a loving partner , supportive parents , & an amazing job . So , what could be wrong ?
I'm depressed & I have been for years . All the signals I sent towards Jeongguk , he kept missing & I was tired of fighting .

A lone tear escaped out of my eye at the thought of my depression winning . The thought of everything I loved , leaving . The world that was slowly swallowing me whole , disappearing.

I heard the front door opening & Jeongguk's heavy footsteps in his signature black boots that I adored . I kept playing his voice recording even though he was downstairs calling out my name .

I could feel myself getting tired & before I could rest my eyes , Jeongguk busted down the locked door . He rushed towards me & placed my head on his lap . He was on the phone with someone while telling me to keep my eyes open .

His face was turning red from all his tears . I used my hand to wipe a few from his cheek . I heard him yell one more time , before I lost consciousness.

My soul had left my body & wandered into a dark abyss . I watched as the paramedics rushed towards my body & tried to resuscitate me .

My parents right behind them .

My mom pulled Jungkook into a tight hug as he cried into her shoulder .

I wanted to reach out to them & hug them , but I couldn't . A woman appeared next to me with a smile on her face . I flinched back , but quickly calmed myself .

" You can say something to him before we take you on ".
She said , rubbing my back .

" Will he be able to see me " ?
I asked .

" We can make that happen , darling ".
She replied .

After a few hours , all the paramedics had left & the only person in the house was Jeongguk .

His eyes bloodshot red .

I looked at my face in the mirror of the bathroom I died in . I slowly opened up the door & walked out . Jeongguk still hadn't noticed me , so I sat down next to him .

He screamed , grabbing his chest .

" This has got to be a fucking nightmare . You aren't really here ".
Jeongguk cried .

His hands reached for my face , grabbing my cheeks , & kissing me .

" I'm here , but I'm not here for long . I need to tell you something ".

All my emotions were coming back to me & I was quickly starting to regret the fact that I killed myself & caused him /my family all this pain .

" How do you feel " ?
He asked holding tightly onto my hands , afraid to let me go .

" Well nothing hurts anymore .... I feel kind of free ". I replied with a small smile .

He smiled back , wiping his tears .

" I'll love you forever & forever baby , but I have to go now . I'll see you someday on the other side . Okay ? ".

He reached out for my hand as I faded away into thin air .

The woman waited for me on the other side , rubbing my back as I watched Jeongguk break down in our living room.

A few days later , I quickly had become accustomed to the afterlife . Thanks to the woman , who I learned was a 50 year old murder victim named Lucille . She had been here for eight years & couldn't wait for her loved ones to join her .

I was sitting on the edge of my bed when I heard a small knock on my door .

" Come in , Lucille ".
She popped her head in & smiled widely at me .

" You have a visitor . Well a visitor who's gonna be here for a long time , y/n".
Lucille opened the door a bit more , showing Jeongguk with a bright smile on his face .

I ran towards him in disbelief.

" Why are you here " ?
I asked , shocked.

" Because I can't live without you ".

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Happy 8th anniversary to my loves . 💞