The Broken Raven - A Paradox Of Two Worlds Series Book 1

Chapter 14- Clay

I begin kissing her and work my way down, my hand locating the button on her shorts while she places my hand back where it was. I raise my eyes to her because she has never been touched before, and she nods in agreement.

My finger finds her vulnerable area, I lower my hand down to her panties, and I rub in circular motions. She is wet and ready for me. She moans. I slowly pump while moving my finger inside of her. She bites her lower lip and closes her eyes when I gaze up at her. Her legs get stiff, and she begins to tremble. I can tell she is about to come. I increase the speed of my finger and thrusts, matching the rhythm of her moans. She arches her back and releases a loud scream as she reaches her climax. I approach her and give her lips a kiss. "How was that for round 1 of our little game?" I ask. She looks at me with a sad look on her face.

"What's wrong?" I ask. "Was that not good? Did you not want to? I made your first time uncomfortable, didn't I?" I ask. What the hell is wrong with me? Why am I stuttering so much?

"No...It felt amazing," she says softly.

"Then what's wrong?" She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath.

"You're the first guy to ever touch me like that, but you have been with so many girls; I don't think you and I can play this game. I'm not experienced like them. I only leave broken hearts behind, but this, this is totally out of my league. So you win; you're tougher than I thought," she says, looking away from me.

I wrap my arms around her and say. "Ray, if you want to stop, we can, but I think it will be fun to see how far we can go with this; remember, you started all this. I was good until you came along and made me your next pawn." Her eyes widened, and I let out a little laugh. "Yeah, I heard you that day tell Brie."

When I see her grin and hear her laugh, I feel something. I kiss her while leaning in and breathing in her aroma. She cuddles up next to me and begins drawing an outline around my tattoos. It's already late, and Raven jumps up and says she needs to go home as I hear Logan and Brie talking.

"Spend the night. Why not stay with me if Brie is staying with Logan?" I say. She muses over it, but I speak to her first and ask, "Stay. It's already past midnight, and from what I've observed in Logan and Brie's relationship, couples often spend the night at one another's homes." I smirk as I raise an eyebrow.

"We aren't dating. Remember, as you said, this is just fun. Let's see how far we can take this. No falling in love, no dating, no emotions. "

"Well, what if I told you I'm willing to change my rules for you?" I can't begin to explain why I just said that. This girl makes me say things I would never say, and makes me feel things I would never feel.

"So you're telling me the bad boy on campus wants me to be his girlfriend? " She asks.

I sit up and face her. "Yes, if that's okay with you." I reply.

She sits there, contemplating what I just said. Her face is giving it away; she told me not to confuse anything between us. What the hell did I do?

"Don't take this personally, but I'm fine on my own," she says. She is playing the same game as me; the only difference is that I'm the only one who has touched her, and she admitted it.

"I'll drive you home." I get up to put my shirt back on.

"Thanks, but I think I can manage!" She says. She heads to the door but then turns around. She walks back toward me, kisses me one last time, and says, "Let's do this again sometime."

She walks away, leaving me stunned and out of breath. What happened just now? I'll show her what she's missing.

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We have a party every weekend; the following night at our house, another party ensues. While waiting for Raven to enter, I sit there with the boys and laugh as the girls crawl all over me. She glances at me, and I begin to show her what she is missing after her scent alerts me to her direction. To elicit any reaction from Raven, I allow the female to kiss me. Nothing. She is gone! In her tale, she wants me to be the bad guy. She is unaware that I am both, which is true.

I scan my surroundings to find her. I approach her as she is dancing with Brie and Logan. I grab her waist and ask if I can dance with her. I don't often do this, but I need to get inside her thoughts. We dance after she nods in agreement. She pulls away and leaves after one song. In the corridor, I confront her and grab her wrist.

"Why can't you let me in?" I ask point-blank.

"I don't want to let you in. I'm better off alone," she states.

I pull her into the powder room and lock the door behind us. "I don't know what is going on, but I can't do this anymore."

"Do what?" A mischievous smile plays on her lips.

"Stay away from you or act as if I don't care about you. What we have might be good. Why don't you give it a shot? Hell, my pillowcase still bears witness to your innocence. Regarding you, I have no control. I'm totally helpless. Something is going on here. I'm sure you can sense it."

"Sorry, but I don't believe in fairytales." She looks at me, her eyes dark; she is serious. She goes to walk away, but I grab her wrist.

"There's no way you're walking out!" I tell her, "Have you ever been drawn to someone? It drives you crazy. Look, I don't know what is happening, but I want to give you the love you deserve."

Everything I just told her is the truth. I don't know what is happening to me, but this feeling inside me tells me not to let her go.

"I think maybe you should see a doctor because you're delusional. Like I said before, don't take this seriously. I'm only here to have fun."

I have no words as she walks away. She heads back to Brie and tells her that she is leaving, but Logan stops me from following her. I head upstairs once he leaves me, locking my door behind me. I'll give it to her; she's good, but I'm better. I'll give her the bad boy if she wants it. But I won't let her win that easily. I'll show her what a real man is capable of.