15 days of Holy Matrimony→𝙋𝙅𝙈

Day 11| Revealing

 Day 11: Revealing

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Piece of Park's mind

If a year and a half ago, you asked me where I would be today, I would've answered you with an outrageous laugh. Lost is all I was. Broken from the inside, sick and tired. Do not get me wrong, I love my mum and dad... not the biological ones though; they are only my parents on paper. Mum and dad took me in when I lost all hope in life, feeling neglected and burdened. Even though I was always grateful to them, I was never truly happy. Every time I felt happy in my Ma's hold and my father's presence, a dark part of me always reminded me that I was only an unwanted burden in their happy, unproblematic family. I felt like a guest in a house that was truly mine.
But, here I am today, happy. Genuinely happy that I am part of their family. Taehyung is my brother and Taehee is my sister, with a very evil yet cute nephew Han. Now Luna and Luca is also part of my little family. And in few days, Y/n will also be part of them, part of me.

Not that she isn't mine now. I don't need a single piece of legal paper to claim that she's mine.

I am happy. And I found that happiness because of one person, Y/n, My Y/n. She helped me find my own peace, my own salvation.

I have never thought about settling down in a marital bond. I have seen how Taehyung and Luna act around each other and even though they are happy together, I never understood what was the hype about being married. That of course lasted till I have started dating Y/n. As if she did some sort of magic spell on me that converted into me craving more and more with her. I wanted everything from making her mine to even throwing a huge ceremony, declaring to the world that she is and will forever belong to me.

Everything seems like a dream. I cannot believe that only a few days left till I am officially hers. Her husband, her other half.

I know the past few days has been slightly rocky for both of us, but we still worked our way through it. I promised her and myself that whatever differences we face, we will work our way through it and overcome it. Because, at the end of the day, our happiness only align with one another. As long as I have my Y/n with me, I wouldn't ask for anything else.

For the past few days, I could tell something has been bothering her. No matter how much I try to pinpoint, I cannot seem to find it. I tried to give her enough space to inform me when she is ready. But not anymore, I cannot. The last time, I tried to give her space, she ended up being on a hospital bed. She's hiding from me something very serious, and I'm not willing to wait anymore.

Now, I am sitting on my couch, with Jungkook and Hoseok who invited themselves to my house. I don't think I am even with them considering how my brain decided to play how Elle left the house in a rush two hours ago:

"Jimin! I-I will come back soon! Right now, I cannot tell you what happened but I promise I will come back as soon as I can with Y/n!"

Her rushed tone, fear in her voice made my heart still in despair. No matter how much she explained everything is fine, I cannot help but feel something is terribly wrong and Y/n is hiding something from me yet again.

It doesn't make me feel any better... As someone who's becoming her husband soon, I cannot help but feel absolutely rubbish and how she doesn't trust me enough to share her weak points with me. I am her partner, her companion. If I am going to be her other half soon then why do I feel like she is distancing herself from me?

Am I not good enough for her? Does she not think I can support her emotionally and be there for her at every shitty to good step? I do not only want her happiness, I want to share her sadness too.