Her Billionaire Boss

Chapter 41

Nothing beats an unbearable pain than a broken heart.

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. I hate myself, I want to just disappear. I don't want to get hurt. I wish I can control my emotions. Better, I wish to be numb. Gusto kong umiyak nang umiyak.

And that's what I did.

Luke probably pitied me. He finally see how miserable I am. I want to kill myself for being like this. I hate this. I fucking hate everything.

My anxiety doesn't seem to stop. I was breathing heavily inside Luke's car. My legs are moving up and down, sweaty hands, cold sweat and chewing my lower lip. Hindi ko alam kung paano kami nakalabas sa resto basta ang alam ko nasa kotse na ako ni Luke. Nakaandar iyong sasakyan pero hindi gumagalaw. Luke just stared blankly ahead. I want to calm myself down but I can't seem to do it because of what is happening. I know Luke saw him. He knows what's happening right now.

I forced myself to stop crying. Fucking tears.

Luke quietly handed me a bottle of water. I am so disappointed at myself. His planned date is ruined because of me. Dumoble ang inis ko sa sarili ko sa ginawa ni Luke. Even though I know that he's hurting, he's always thinking of me. Taking care of me like he didn't just witnessed the woman he courted for almost two years cried just because she saw a sight of her ex. Gusto kong magmura.

"Drink. It'll calm you down."

Ayan na naman ang mga luha ko. Bakit ba ang bait niya? He doesn't deserved to be treated like this.

"Please, stop crying. It's breaking me."

Hindi ko talaga mapakalma ang puso ko. I felt so heavy.

Dahan-dahan kong tinanggap ang tubig. Ininom ko iyon.

"I-Im sorry."

Iyan lang ang masasabi ko. Potanginang feelings nato, sarap maglaslas ngayon na.

Luke didn't answer. Instead, he drove us to a nearest convenience store. Bumaba siya nang walang salita. Ako ang naiwan mag-isa sasakyan. I did nothing but watch him buying something. He got out of the store carrying a white plastic bag.

Pumasok siya sa kotse niya. Binukas niya ang plastic bag and he handed me an ice cream cone, "Eat."

Yawa.

Ano ba ang nagawa ko at may nagkagusto sa akin na katulad ni Luke?

"Nganong but-an man kaayo ka?" sa sobrang lungkot ko, napa-bisaya ako. Napatanong ako kung bakit ang bait niya.

I expected him that he won't understand what I'm saying but he answered, "Because I love you."

Lord, si Luke nalang.

Please, si Luke nalang.

His blue eyes are looking at my brown ones. Nalulunod ako.

"Eat the ice cream. It's going to melt. I'll drive you home and get some rest."

Walang salita ang lumalabas sa bibig ko. I quietly ate the ice cream. More like sniffing. Nahihirapan na akong huminga dahil sa grabe ng pag-iyak ko.

Nakarating na kami sa bahay namin pagkatapos kong kumain. Medyo kumalma na ako.

"Get some sleep, okay? I'll see you when I see you, Ree-Ree. Good night." he said. I can clearly see the sadness of his beautiful blue eyes.

How I wish I can wipe that sadness away. I just want him to be happy.

***

"Deseree, bakit absent ka?!" Dianne shouted when I answered the call.

I bit my lip, "I'm not feeling well."