Rhythms and Skies

Thirthy-seventh Step

Looking at us from another perspective seems like todays is just an ordinary day, todays' far from our usual day, to tell everyone the truth.

But me being me, I don't want everyone else to act strangely. And I guess, they knew me too well. After all the scenarios at the shore, I told them I want to enjoy the place since we only went here once, Malay ba natin kung kailan ulit kami makakabalik rito, o kung makakabalik pa ba ako?

Nevertheless, we enjoyed the night. Strolling around even the atmosphere was a bit off, Alam ko sinabi ko na ayokong umakto sila na may iba pero parang hindi naman ata maiiwasan 'yon, there are times where one of us is zoning out; accidentally bumping on particular people, things, even the strangest non-living things. Kahit nga sa puno muntik ng may tumama e.

"Namiss kong tumugtog sa mga ganitong lugar," Chimed Ruwen from my back. Lumingon ako rito habang yakap-yakap ko ang tela ng jacket sa lamig.

He's pertaining at the small bar beside the shore, not many people are inside. It wasn't too quite either, it's the definition of chill for me.

"Wanna play inside?" I asked.

"Pass," Pagtangi niya, waving his hand.

I laughed, he's unpredictable sometimes, really. As the unpredictable that I am as well, I hurriedly walked inside, voices of disapproval coming from them echoed inside my ear. Tumawa lang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagpasok.

Someone greeted us as we went through. Then someone grabbed my arms, tugging me with him, I snorted as a response.

"Calm down, Flyn."

"Bawal kang uminom," Paalala niya habang umupo kaming lahat sa bakanteng sofa. I occupied the seat where I can watch people dance on the dance floor.

"Why not?" I whispered. "Isa lang naman."

Most of them shook their head in disapproval. While they're ordering their drinks, they got me a watermelon fruit shake. Nonetheless, I accept the drink and didn't complain anymore.

I watched them as they drink their bottles, too quick. Two bucket and still they want more, buti nalang at napigilan ko. We still need to wake up early tomorrow for our flight back to La Glance. Most of them are leaning back on sofa, eyes closed. While Enjie's on his phone, about to nod off.

I watched as couples goes slow dance on dance floor, sweet melody and sweet gestures; hands over waist and forehead over forehead.

I thought I was on prom or something kahit hindi ko naman naranasan mag prom kahit kailan. Funny enough, I was home schooled anyway.

They had the chance to love while I cannot, I wanna shook off the thought but I couldn't.

I want to feel how is it to fall in love, the butterflies on stomach they are saying. The goofy smile and shallow laughters. I wonder how does it feel to fall in love.

I feel awful, I want to love not platonically but romantically. Gusto kong maranasan mag-mahal pero kinulang sa oras e. I suddenly felt hallow, I just sipped my drink and avoided my gaze.

Good for them.

A hand extended infront of me, I look up to see who it was only to see a very familiar m eyes darted on me, almond eyes and lifted eyelash. In my memory they were chocolate brown but it seems black right now because it's night time.