Higher power - Lando Norris

19. Clocks

I woke up still laying on the floor, I noticed knocking on my door. Hard loud banging, I heard Max yelling my name and I stood up and walked quickly to the door. "hey whats wrong?" he sights really deep and pulls me in a hug "You bitch I thought you were kidnapped, if been looking for you all night." I look at him in disbelieve "You searched for me all night and just now you checked my hotelroom?" , "I already checked by Lando and he told me you were probably in your room, he looked terrified when I told him I was looking for you." I nod and put some hair behind my ear "He probably thought I left after yesterdays incident" he looked at me confused "incident?" I feel tears already in my eyes but I stayed strong "we had a fight after we left the club" Max looked even more suprised "I thought you guys were leaving early to like umh,,,, you know what I want to say", I laugh at Max being uncomfortable talking about sex "No we didn't, well we were about too but it didn't happen", "If you want to talk about it I'm here for you, you know" I nod "I'm okay, I will talk to Lando about last night before I leave"  Max nods and gives me a hug again "I'm happy your safe in here, I will see you before you leave" I nod in the hug and with that Max leaves toward his own room.

I look at my phone and see a text from Lando on my phone, it was a whole story and I decide to first get into the shower before reading it. I knew it would make me emotional so I wanted to be all warm and cosy before reading it all. It was still early in the morning so I would sleep a couple of hours after my shower. I turned on the shower and listen to the song Clocks by Coldplay, I finally feel a bit of peace in my body, my back hurted a little from sleeping on the floor but it would go away tomorrow so I was glad I could sleep tonight even if it was on the floor. I stepped out of the shower and dried my hair and body. I got into some baby blue biker shorts with a white oversized shirt with a big print on the back, the print showed a car with in big letter above it  '90's baby' I thought it was a quiet a cute sleeping outfit and it would also be comfortable enough for in the plane. I sit against the headboard of my bed and put my legs under the duvet, I felt warm and cosy and grabbed my phone and opened the chat with Lando.

Lando:

 Hey Nina, I hope you read this the next morning. I'm so fucking sorry about everything. Your not just a girl, your an amazing, strong, independent woman. Every man would feel like they won the lottery with a girl like you and I just screwed everything up. I'm so sorry, if you want to talk I will be at the restaurant Salz till 11 a.m. I hope we can get past this and everything can be fixed but I would get it if you never want to see me again.

Lando

I feel tears on my cheek and I didn't knew if they were happy or sad. I wanted to give him another change but his words hurted my heart and I don't think I will get over it in one night. I thought about it a long time before I dozed off in sleep again, it was 6 a.m so it wasn't weird that I would sleep for a couple more hours. I woke up at 10 a.m and decided I just wanted to hear Lando story and I would sleep a couple nights about it before deciding what I should do. I was hurt and I my heart was hurt so he couldn't expect me to just forgive and forget but I would let him talk to me.

I walked inside the restaurant and spotted Lando sitting in the back of the restaurant probably for the paparazzi, he didn't want to be recognised right now. He had a black hoodie on with some short grey sweatpants. "hey" he looked up in shock, he was staring to one point all the time when I walked up to him, he looked tired and I could see he cried some as well last night. "hey umh, I'm glad you came" I nod and sat down "I just want to hear your story and I will leave, I need some time to think" he nods and takes a deep breath "Well first off all I'm sorry about yesterday night, I handled it really wrong. When you asked if I unclipped a bra before I was a bit offended scared you would judge me" I look him in the eye "don't blame this on me, go on with you story" He looks down at his hands "I never should have say your just a girl or that you would ever talk bad about me. I panicked and I didn't thought of the words I was using. I really like you and I want you on my side and I just want you to be mine and not anyone else. I'm scared we won't work because of my career, your school, Max. I.... I just don't want this to go away" he said while pointing between us. I saw a tear on his cheek and I felt like he meant every word that just got out of his mouth. 

I smile at him "thank you for being honest, I want this to work too but yesterday you hurt me big time so  I need some time to think but I think we can put this behind us when we spend some time apart" Lando nod and looked a bit relieved he didn't messed up the whole relationship. I wanted to stand up and I looked at Lando one last time and gave him a smile, when I was about to turn around he whispered "can I please have one hug before you leave for god know how long?" I laugh a little "sure Lando" he stands up and pulls me really close and tight by my waist. I feel him relax a bit and I put my arm around his neck playing with his hair with my hand. His thumb rub my back a bit and we stood there for a couple of minutes. When I pull back I see some tears on his cheek, I smile and whipe them away with my hand and whipser "its going to be okay, just some time" he nods and gave me a quick last hug. I give him a kiss on his cheek and left the restaurant, I felt a tear on my cheek rolling down I wanted to be strong in front of Lando but now when I was walking back to the hotel to grab my stuff and leave I couldn't hold my tears back. 

I didn't want to leave, I was happy till yesterday here and I felt carefree. I grabbed my stuff and got into a taxi, I knew Max would be at the airport to wave me goodbye. I walked inside the airport and saw Max standing there together with Kelly and Vicky. I smiled at them and walked towards them, I dropped my bagage to the floor and hugged all of them. We talked for a while before I had to leave, I got into the plane and put my airpods in. I played the song Magic by Coldplay and felt myself ease down. I thought about the last two weeks and a little smile grew on my face, I met some new people and met someone special who probably would become a part of her life, but now she had to focus on the last few weeks of her mom before thinking about herself again.

A/N 

Magic by Coldplay, my favourite song of all time, I recommend listing to it. I cry most time I listen to the song, it means a lot to me. It dedicated to my passed away grandparents, I miss them. I hope you like the way the story is going, a lot more to come and the drama doesn't stop here.

I don't know if I like the way the story goes right now but we will see.....

Lots of Love XX