Higher power - Lando Norris

6. Broken record

A/N: I don't know for sure but I will give this chapter a little TRIGER WARNING for mental breakdowns and family issues. It's can be really heavy for some of you, my DM is always open when you look for someone to talk to! Lots of love XX

* if you want to read this chapter without the heavy part, you can start at the 🧡

I'm back in my hotelroom staring at the ceiling, I feel guilty for being this happy. My mom is at home really sick but she was the one demanding I would go here for my break. I miss her a lot, she is not her old self because of illness, it's difficult but I don't tell anyone that. I don't want people feel sorry for me and don't need anybody's pity. I decide to take a cold shower to block out the negative thoughts. I turn the shower on and let the water fall onto my body. I start crying and before I know an hour has past of me crying under my shower. My feet feel numb of how cold they got. 

I turn off the shower and dry my body feeling at peace again, I throw my towel onto the bed and looked at myself in the mirror. I look at my body looking for imperfections, I start crying again, people always tell me my body was to die for but I just didn't see it. I break down and let myself fall on my knees with my head in my hands. Just when I was about to stand up and put some clothes on, someone knocks on my door. I yell with a broken voice " One second" I look into the mirror to see my messed up face from crying.

I didn't know who was coming to my room at midnight, all the drivers were sleeping, right? I open the door and look George in his eyes. His face falls down when he sees my face, without saying anything he pulls me close to his body and I start crying again. "Oh Nina what's wrong?" he whispers while putting he puts is head on top of mine. I hug his waist really thigh and whisper "I miss......I miss her" He doesn't understand what I'm meaning but then remembers about my family situation. "It's okay Nina, you will be home before you know, do you want me to change your flight to tomorrow?" I  think about it but I want to watch the boys race this weekend. "No it's fine, just a little mental breakdown" I say while letting go of his waist and stepping back. He looks me in the eyes and wipes a lost tear on my cheek away. I fake a small smile "I'm fine" he giggles "No your not" with that he walks into my hotelroom and lays down on my bed. I close the door confused. "you should sleep George, I'm a big girl, I will be fine by myself" He stays quiet.

I decide to get to the other side of the bed, George instantly pulls me close to him and I lay my head on his chest. I feel really calm listing to his heart beat and in no time I fall asleep while George is playing with the ends of my hair.

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I  wake up the next day still in George his arms,  my first reaction is trying to get out of his grip. He seems still asleep when I try to get myself out of his embrace, George groans " don't move, stay" I giggle at his morning voice, I feel at peace again after last night. He looks down at me "Your smiling again, how are you feeling?" I lift my head to look at him and give him a little smile before saying " it was just too much for me last night but I feel okay again, you are great company" He smiles back at me "happy to be here for you, you want to talk about yesterday" I shake my head "No, it's not much, just missed my family" He nods. "I need to go now or they will miss me in my hotelroom, have to be in 15 minutes in the lobby" he whispers. I nod, he kisses the top of my head and gets out of my bed. He walks toward the door "hey George, why were you here in the first place last night?" He turns around with a smile " I couldn't sleep so wanted to look if you were awake to be my movie buddy" I laugh and shake my head in disbelieve.

Currently the boys are busy with practise 3, this afternoon qualification was on the program so the atmosfeer was really different than the one from yesterday, everyone was a bit more nervous. This morning at breakfast nobody noticed my sleepy head, so I was relieved. 

Max came back to the garage, practise went well for the team and they were ready for the qualification. He went into his driversroom and I followed him, when i close the door he straight asked me "Are you okay, you look really tired?" I look away, trying not to cry because I feel tears burning behind my eyes " Yes, just had a rough night could not sleep" Max knows when I'm lying and looks at me while putting his hands on his hips "now the real reason please"

 I let out a sight and with that sight an single tear drops from my eye "I really miss my mother, she's really ill, doctors don't give her another year but can't tell for how long she will be alive" Max already knew this but didn't want to ruin Nina her break by bringing the subject up "I know Nien, I know" he puts his arms around me rubbing his thumb over my back. I cry a little before looking him in the eyes "thanks for being always there for me even when your not around" he smiles at me "of course" and with that Vicky comes in " I'm sorry but you need to get back in the car" He nods and grabs his helmet, he smiles a last time at me before leaving his room. Before I know Vicky grabs my hand and she walks with me to the big screen where we can watch Max.

Max got pole, Hamilton got p2 and Lando got p3. I was happy for Max and Lando, they were both really good drivers and deserved to begin at the front of the grid. Max got out of his car and got praised by his team. Vicky, Kelly and me are standing next to the team, He hugs me and Vicky and gets a kiss of Kelly, I smile at the image of Kelly and Max kissing they were good for each other.

We got back to the hotel and I saw Lando already walking to the hotel restaurant, I run up to him "hey Lando" he looks confused to his side, while he sees me his facial expression changes in a big smile "hey sunshine" I hug him "congrats on p3 that's big" He smiles and nods "yes, the team was on fire today and the car was feeling great" we look in each other eyes for a few seconds before I talk again "umh well, I'm going to change and will go eat then, good luck tomorrow" he also snaps out of our starring and looks at his feet " Yea thanks, we will see each other around" without thinking I kiss him on the cheek and walk away. When I look back over my shoulder I see Lando standing bright red with an confused face. I laugh at the image and get into the elevator.

When I came back from dinner, I straight went to bed. I think about how excited I'm for the race of tomorrow. I turn to my side and shut my eyes.

Lots of love XX