Higher power - Lando Norris

40. the end of this story

Me and Lando have been walking around each other because Lando and me couldn't match time sceduals, I was busy with my new job and he was busy with his racing. We didn't really talk a lot anymore and we only saw each other in bed or while eating. We had our good weeks when we were both hadn't responsibility but now when we did have them, we didn't have time for each other. Time went fast but sometimes it felt like our relationships went in slow motion. Was this ment we were right people wrong time, I didn't know. What I did knew I needed to talk to him about what next because this wasn't working. We were almost having our one year but I didn't even felt excited so it wasn't feeling right to celebrate that.

"Lando can we talk?" he nodded but didn't look at me, "do you still love me?" he was surprised by my question and looked at me almost mad "yes why?", "because we been avoiding each other, even with all our plans we don't speak to each other anymore", he nodded again "I know, do you still love me?" I nodded "yes I will always love you but I don't know if I'm still in love with you". He looked at me and just like that he understood, he felt the same way and that moment both our hearts broke a little. "To be honest I feel the same, our love right now isn't easy and we love more like friends than lovers but we can try again". I shook my head "it doesn't help because after some time being a good couple we will fall back in this and we both will be unhappy" he nodded in agreement and a tear fell down my face, "Maybe it's better to take some distance then, see if we will miss each other like lovers do?" he proposed, a tear fell down his face too. "Maybe that is a idea, we could try?" I say with a broken voice . Lando looked unsure "if you want to, I think we still will work out together" I nod, "I do too but I need to know what I miss when I'm without you" he looked confused at me "am I not enough for you?" I shake my head "you are but we are avoiding each other more than we loving each other right now"

It hurt me we didn't work out because I had so much love for that boy. We agreed that night that I would rent a place for three months to have a break from each other but the moment I stept into the apartment I felt lonely and all I wanted was to be in Lando his arms.

I couldn't tell him because he needed to think too, we were not speaking to each other for a while. But I was alone now and that ment I had to sleep alone too, the nightmare came back proving I wasn't enough for Lando. It was horrible, my life turned upside down Lando was what I needed but I couldn't reach out to him. I was a month into the break and I still heard nothing from him, was he okay with all this? didn't he missed me like I missed him?  I couldn't take it any longer and I decided I would go visit him on a friendly way. I needed to see him, to see if he was doing alright.

I knocked on his door and he opened the door, he was shocked when he saw me. He looked really uncomfortable with me showing up at his door "hey Nina, what are you doing here?". I smile at him "Hey, just wanted to see how you were doing." I look down at the ground being nervous. I could sense I wasn't the only one and just like that I knew why. "Lando, I'm leaving. Do you need something when I come back here" it was a woman voice, I didn't recognize the voice and when a blond, blue eyed girl walked past Lando. My heart broke again, he found another girl. She looked at me with a smile and wanted to introduce herself but all I could do was look at Lando his face, he didn't dare to look at me. "hey I'm Ginna, are you a friend of Lando?"  she could sense the weird tense but I shook her hand. "yes I'm his friend". She kissed his cheek before saying goodbye to me and walking away. After some seconds I broke down "how could you move on so fast?" he shook his head "it was your choice to have a break don't come at me for having some fun with another girl" I couldn't believe my ears, was this still the same Lando.  I turned around and walked away from him, I couldn't anymore. He took my heart out and broke it in a million pieces.

(Lando POV)

She walked away and I had regret right at the spot. How could I hurt her like this, why did she have to stop by after a one night stand. The blond girl I met last night wanted to watch a movie after work at my place before leaving to her own city again. It was a one time thing but Nina couldn't be mad at me for that, we were on a break. That ment we could do both what we wanted, even if we just did it to forget the pain. I missed her like hell and seeing her made my whole body warm up, she had something no other girl had but last night I got fucked up and hooked up with a girl. I hate myself, she looked broken and not herself after seeing that girl. I decide to text Nina to let her know it wasn't my meaning to let this happen.

L- I'm so sorry Nina, she wasn't suppose to be here. It was a one time thing.

N- Sure Lando, I couldn't tell you what to do, have fun with her.

She didn't believe me, I'm fucking stupid. She would never want to see me again and I promised her mother to look after her all her life.  I couldn't take it and cried my eyes out, I loved her still as much as I did back then. I didn't want to have a break anymore, she needed to come back to me even if we were toxic sometimes. I can't live without her, I need her.

------------------------------------------------- ( back to Nina pov)

I cried all night on my couch not believing what I witnessed today, I was broken and nobody could fix me except from Lando. He was my soulmate and I knew it for sure after missing him for a month, he didn't miss me and he didn't think about me. How could I ever live with myself knowing the person I love the most doesn't love me back. 

I woke up the next day miserabel from everything, one thing I knew I hated myself for ever thinking we needed a break. Lando was everything to me but we needed to work a bit more for that but we didn't we decided on the easy way and split. I wanted to turn back time and never even ask him the question if  he loved me. I love him with all my heart but that heart is broken right now.

A broken heart is like a puzzle missing a piece, you can put it back together and make it look all pretty, but it will never be te same....

Lots of Love XX

I will be back.........