It was the night, the night it would all go down. The doctor told us she wouldn't live for another 24 hours, it was done. She would go and I would stay here out alone, all by myself. I was scared, no not even scared I was terrified what would happen after, after all this. I couldn't think straight, my hands were shaking and my eyes are full with tears. I was with my brother in my moms room waiting for it to happen. My brother was quiet, he looked okay but I know he wasn't, his girlfriend flew out here to be here for him and Lando left for his next race. He wouldn't left before I had to beg him to go because he couldn't miss a race for me. Max was messaging me the whole night, asking for updates and sending loving messages to try to comfort me but he failed. I was helpless, I didn't know what to do or to say or even to think. My moms breath was the only thing I was focusing on, it was soft and quick but also peaceful. We all hoped my mom would wake up one more time so we could say or goodbyes but the doctor wasn't sure it would happen, the doctor said she was weak and she would probably pass when she is asleep. I was happy it would go that way so she wouldn't be scared or would try to fight it, I know she lost from the cancer but I know she would always stay a winner and I tried to be her biggest support after all.
Suddenly there is a change in her breathing rhythm, I held my breath, was this already the moment. But then she inhaled deep and opened her eyes, it was dark in the room and she looked around for some light, so I walked up to her and put on the light on her nightstand. With a really soft voice I said "hi mom", it was like I almost lost my voice so it came out really soft but she heard me, "hi honey" she put her hand on my cheek and whipped a tear away. "so this is it?" my mom let out a small laugh "for me yes but for you, you have your whole life ahead of you" I couldn't react but only cry. My brother also joined the bed and sat on the other side, she grabbed with her other hand his hand, "take care of each other and everything will be fine" my brother nod and gave my mom a kiss on the cheek, "I love you mom, fly high" he said before holding her hand tight and he cried. His girlfriend walked up to him and laid her hand on his shoulder, she was in tears and my mom looked at her with her loving eyes and small smile "take care of him, will you" she just nodded and gave my mom a small smile through her tears. "I will, thanks for everything, you have an amazing son and daughter, you guys feel like family" my mom gave her another small smile before turning her attention to me. "my little girl" I cried loud and broke down in her arms, "Nina look at me" I sit back up again and look att my mom through my tears. "you can cry every now and then but don't let this effect your life, you will do amazing wherever you go, I know for sure" she let out a tear as well and we held each other hand tight. "I love you mom, I can't live without you", she smiled at me "yes you can, I'm proud of both of you and you guys will make it, I will look from above okay?" I just nod and hugged my mom, my brother joined in and we held on to each other for a moment.
It felt like a really short time but we hugged for a long time before my mom told us "I love you both, let's meet again in another life"she kissed our foreheads and she fell asleep again. She was so tired and she couldn't hold on any longer, it all went so fast but also the world stopped. I was broken and I didn't want to admit it but I didn't know what to do next. We all looked at my mom, and just like that she let out her last breath, we looked at each other and back at my mom. Was this her last breath, I didn't want to believe it. It all became more real and I realised at that moment she was really gone.
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I sat on a my coach in my room zoned out, my mind was blank and I couldn't think about anything. Everyone was downstairs but I couldn't move, couldn't talk, couldn't cry. I felt empty like some piece of myself was missing, my heart was hurting and the weather was feeling with me because it rained outside. Suddenly there was a knock on the door and someone walks in, I didn't look at who it was but I feel an arm around me and a breath agains my hair and cheek. Of course I knew who it was but I couldn't really care right now, I wasn't ready for today, I would never be ready to say my final goodbye to my mom. It was the day of the burial of my mom and I would have to face a lot of people. Before we had to go Lando and Max came here to pick us up and to have a moment for ourselfs before facing reality.
Lando was really sweet for me but I was unable to return that, I felt nothing anymore, I cried myself to sleep every night. I locked my room so nobody would see my weak side, my brother tried to get in my room every night but he also knew it wasn't what I wanted so he just let me be me. Lando spoke up for the first time or this was the first time I listen to his words "we will get through this together, I will be by your side the whole day" I look at him for the first time since he got here "thank you", he pulled be back in his embrace and gave my cheek a kiss before standing up and reaching his hand out to me. "Nina, we have to go" I hear my brother screaming from downstairs "one minute" Lando responded. I looked at Lando and put my hand is his, we walked downstairs and I gave my brother a hug, he asked me "are you ready?" I shook my head "I will never be ready but we have to do this for mom" he nodded and let a tear fall down his cheek. I whipped it away and give him a small smile "remind her words, we will meet her again".
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A/N
Hello friends, I know it is a long time I didn't post but I didn't know how to write this chapter because it's difficult how to write it. I hope you guys "like" the chapter. This way felt right to me, it was personal and sweet but also really sad. The song fits perfectly with this chapter I think so if you want you can listen it/
(will try to update more but can't promis anything, school is a lot these weeks)
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FanfictionA story based on Formula 1, this is my first story so don't expect too much. The story is about the niece of Max Verstappen; Nina Verstappen. She is a girl with faked confidence and a independent woman, who doesn't need anyone,, she thinks. She meet...
