Higher power - Lando Norris

27. After everything

It's been two weeks since my mom passed, one week since her burial and today my brother left our, well my house. I was alone, nobody was close to the house so it was really me, myself and I. Lando invited me for his race but I wasn't ready, knowing the media also knew about the passing of the aunt from Max. I don't really know if  they know much about me but I knew I just didn't have any energy to walk around the paddock answering questions and people who will only talk to me about my mom. I was alone but I felt sort of peaceful, I went for a run this morning and just got back. I turned on the shower and let the cold water hit my skin, I cried for the third time today and it was still early, most of my days looked like that right now. The only thing I did was working out to forget the pain, crying when I didn't have any distractions and once a day Liv checked in on me if I had eaten or not. I lost a lot of weight because I didn't want to eat the last few days, I wanted to eat but I couldn't so Liv tried to at least get some food into my body. It was Monday which ment Lando would fly home today but I also really hoped he would fly to my hometown so he could be with me. I didn't want  to ask him to come over because I'm not petatic but also I felt really lonely and he was the only company I liked at the moment. He just knew I didn't want to talk about it yet and he was fine with that.

I walked to the kitchen to grab some breakfast, it was the first time since my moms passing that I ate because I felt a bit hungry. I grabbed some yogurt with berries and sat down at the table, I enjoyed it very much and opened my Instagram for the first time in a month, I saw a post from Lando, he drove amazing last race. Daniel got p1 and he was in p2 and I was really proud, they finally did it and I was sure it wasn't the last time it would happen. Suddenly I hear my front door close and I had no idea who it could be, I knew it couldn't be Lando because he said he would be flying  in an hour. All type of things came up in my head, what if it was somebody I didn't know or somebody who would kill me. I laughed at my own though and walked up to the front door. Suddenly I looked in Max his eyes and I was a bit confused why he was standing in my hall right now. "what are you doing here" I ask while hugging him "well hello to you too" I laugh "hi" he looks at me with a small smile "how are you" I nod and swallow before answering "well, I'm a bit lonely but I feel a bit better every day, it just hurts really bad" He nodded and hugged me again "It's gonna be alright but take your time to heal" I nod. "so why are you here again?" Max let out a laugh "Well I missed you and I wanted to support you for some days" I nod and we walk to the couch. We talk for awhile about some memories of my mom and the race. We order some pizza and eat it while watching a movie, it felt nice to have some company from Max, he was sweet and he just understood me.

The only thing Max still didn't know was that Lando and me got pretty close, he knew we were friends and he didn't ask why Lando also was on the burial of my mom. Lando wasn't really a close family friend, he only was there because he was a friend of mine and he knew Max. So I was a bit scared now that Lando would show up because then I had some explaining to do. 

It was midnight and my fear of Lando showing up disappeared, I was also a bit disappointed because I hoped he would come over to my house when he was back. I was asleep on the couch while Max was still watching a movie, I felt asleep for the first time without crying. I suddenly wake up and look to my right, Max wasn't on the couch anymore but I heard voices in the hall. First I heard Max "what the fuck are you doing here again?" the other voice, I couldn't hear so I walked to the hall and when I walk over to the hall Max didn't hear me "you can't hurt her okay, not now. So maybe you could better leave, she doesn't needs a friend right now. She only needs family right now" Lando sees me and gave me a little smile, while Max turned around and sees me standing in the doorway. "Why are you smiling at him, he isn't supposed to be here" I notice Max is losing his patience, now Lando steps in again "I'm sorry, I will leave. I can come back tomorrow if that's okay by you Nina?" I shake my head "No, you drove all the way here you can stay." Max walks off to the living room grumpy, he is probably confused.

I walk up to Lando and pull him in a hug "congrats on your p2, you did amazing" he let out a little laugh, "thank you, how are you" I finally pull back from the hug "a little better now" I smile at him. We look at each other in silence for a while before he speaks up again "I'm glad that I'm home, I missed you" I gave him a smile "me too" and without thinking, I cup his face and give him a little peck on the lips. And just like it was meant to be, Max walked in "Nina, I'm sorry..." but then he sees me and Lando and his voice changes in an angry voice  "What the fuck" he looks at me in disbelieve. "how could you?" he sounds a bit sad but also angry "you could choose any guy but you choose a driver who races against me, without fucking telling me. This is not okay" he walks back to the living room and I follow him "Max listen, it's not what you are thinking" he looks at me even more angry now "what is it then, so you want to tell me you didn't fuck him while your mother was so fucking sick" I couldn't believe my ears, the anger build up in me and I couldn't hold back "one word about my mom and you can leave Max, watch your fucking words" Max was also angry so this wouldn't get any better "so you did fuck Lando" this time Lando came between "Max watch it, we didn't". Max looked like he could kill somebody right now "Me? who the hell are you think you're talking to. You could chose so fucking many other girl but you choose my family. This is gonna be the same as your ex isn't it" Lando looked at Max with panic in his eyes "Max, don't" I look at Lando "what is he talking about?" Lando looked at me "nothing".

Max smirked "so you didn't even tell her about your ex, when were you planning on telling her, you only used her for sex" I look at him with big eyes "you did what", he looks at me "that is full of bullshit, she told the media a story which wasn't true" Max laughed "well you didn't do anything about it so how could you say that now" Lando shook his head "this is not about my ex, this is about me and Nina. Leave her out of it, I should have told you I had feelings for you cousin" Max laughed really hard, it wasn't a good laugh but a sarcastic laugh "Feelings? do you have feeling for him Nina?" I nodded "yes I do" he couldn't believe me. He walked passed me and walked to the hall, I walked after him "Please don't leave Max" he didn't respond and walked outside to his car and left my house.