Higher power - Lando Norris

35. Give me an answer

We were at the airport, Lando still didn't say a word about the girl but I waited till he was ready to tell about her. He was clearly upset because he still hasn't touch me from the moment in the morning. I though it was a bit weird but I knew Lando was bad at keeping his feelings to himself or I though so because he never hid his feeling for me. We sat down at our gate and Lando grabbed his phone really quickly probably to avoid talking to me, the situation was weird. "Are you okay, Lando?" He looks at me, he didn't even smile just looked me dead in the eye "yea I'm okay" It made me feel weird, he didn't look at me with his loving eyes like he did that evening before. "I love you, you can talk to me" I try for the last time, this time he didn't even look at me, he kept his eyes on his phone "I know". I tried not to get upset so I pushed my feeling aside for a moment and just ignored Lando, he was being an ass right now. He couldn't even reassure me he loved me back so what the fuck did that bitch say to him. I would ask him about it later but now my mind was set on the flight and getting some extra sleep.

Someone tapped my shoulder, it was Lando and he looked at me still with nothing in his eyes, it was weird because he always looked at me if I was the prettiest girl in the world. He looked at me now it he looked at sushi, what he definitely hates "the plane landed, your coming?". I rolled my eyes and grabbed my stuff before walking behind Lando, we went outside and got in the taxi who was waiting for us, of course there were fans waiting for Lando, so he took some photos before getting in the taxi. We didn't talk in the taxi and we arrived at my house first, "you are not sleeping here?" I looked at him with a confused face, he didn't get out of the car, "no, I want to sleep at my home, alone" I couldn't held my tears back, what did she do with Lando. I shut the door and without looking back I walked into my house. Closing the door and slipping with my back against the door to the ground. My knees up to my chin and I cried, he was so different, emotionless. He didn't hug me today while he normally couldn't keep his hands of me, he didn't kiss me today while he normally begs for more kiss.

I sat down for hours it felt like, just crying and holding myself because nobody else could. Until all my sadness turned in angry feelings, he couldn't treat me like this after the last couple of days. He promised me and he promised......he promised my mom whatever would happen, he would care for me even if we would never worked out. I was angry and I wanted to ruin my house, all my anger needed to get released. I grabbed my keys and got in my car, I was still crying but everything turned black before my eyes of the angry feelings. I drove way too fast and I didn't really look at other cars, I needed to see Lando and relieve my anger so the only thing I cared about was getting there.  I even missed the traffic light and before I knew, my car went upside down, my life flashed before my eyes and my car landed on his roof. Everything turned black and I lost my consciousness.

I woke up in the USA hotelroom, was this all a dream or did I dream right now, I stood up from the bed to look in the mirror. When I looked in the mirror I saw my mom, was I in heaven? I started crying when I saw my mom, "mom is that you?" my mother smiled at me and I knew she was there "yes darling, it is me. Why are you here?" I looked at her, "I don't know, I think I died?" she started crying "no that can't be true, your way too young, you need to fight this" I walked away from the mirror, and my back touched someones chest. I turned around and faced Lando, "what are you doing here?" he started to laugh really hard "you couldn't do it, I never believed in you, you are weak and you know it", I started to cry even more and slapped his chest a couple of times. "I'm not weak!" I looked back to see if my moms still there but she was gone, "Mommmm, where are you? I need you!" I cried hysterically. I turned around and Lando was gone, I was alone in a dark room. I felt lonely, empty but I couldn't figure out were I was. 

"Please wake up, Nina we can't loose you"

 Max cried, holding her hand like it was his last hope. Nina looked weird in a medical bed, she looked broken. I could see that she cried but I was  alone waiting for her brother to come in. Why would she try to kill herself by getting in an car accident. The docters weren't sure about if she would survive it but they couldn't change it, she needed to fight for herself and if she didn't her body would give up on her. I didn't understand what was happening, why wasn't Lando with her and why wasn't Lando here. He did take her home and probably slept at her house, but I didn't mind to think about that all my mind could think about was Nina waking up.

Her brother couldn't flight tonight so it would mean I would have to stay here alone, I couldn't I needed someone support. Nina couldn't survive with just me, she needed to feel as much love as possible so I needed to call Lando. I found his number in my phone and called his number, Lando didn't take long to pick up the phone "hey Max, whats up?" Max was still in tears and his voice broke multiple times speaking up "you need to hurry, come to the hospital. It's... It's Nina" he couldn't talk more than that. "what happened Max?" Max couldn't answer so Lando kept asking things "Is she okay? please let me know she is okay?" Max nodded but of course Lando couldn't see and Lando took charge in his own hand with hanging up and he was probably driving to the hospital right now.

After some time Lando walked in and looked in shock at Nina, "No no no this can't be true, what happened"he broke out in tears and sat down next to Nina lifeless body. "I don't know, she got in an car accident" Lando took her hand and hold it close to his face, he looked at me "this is all my fault, no no no. She can't..... she can't" Max looked at Lando "she won't do that, don't say it. She can't, she is needed here"

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