Higher power - Lando Norris

37. Is this our ending?

I laid in bed, finally back home, the hospital wouldn't let me go for two weeks long but I was finally back home. I didn't slept for those two weeks, every time I try to sleep the awful dream comes back and I wake up sweating and crying from nightmare. Lando still didn't told me what happened before the crash, the day from the crash was erased from my memory the last moment I remember is Max on the podium and Lando next to me. Lando would come over tonight to check on me and to eat with me, I will ask him about it. I couldn't really walk with help but I was getting stronger by the day, my arms were alright. I could eat and I could look at my phone and call someone if I needed help. My brother flew back this morning because he needed to be back at work, he missed almost 6 weeks. Max and Lando both came by every day they promised but I needed to try to get better myself. I could stand up by myself and walk for three steps but I needed to practice more the doctor said otherwise I wouldn't get better.

Lando opened the door of my bedroom and walked to the side of the bed, "hello sunshine" he smiled at me and kissed my forehead. "how are you feeling?", I smiled back at him "feeling pretty good, but I'm glad I can finally leave my bed". Lando helped me to sit up, he didn't mind helping me but I felt embarrassed that he had to help me do everything. He then helped me downstairs and sat me down on a chair, "what do you wanna eat Nina? he asked from the kitchen, I didn't really wanted burned food so I ask Lando to order something, I didn't really care what he ordered everything better than his cooking. He sat down on the opposite of me and looked at me. This was the time, I needed to ask how I got into this situation "Lando can I ask you something?", he nodded and I asked the question I was curios about for two weeks "How did I end up in a car crash?". He sighed and looked sad, he didn't want to talk about it but he needed to "Well the day of the crash, I didn't act like myself and it made you mad. I made you angry because I didn't act like a good boyfriend and I'm so fucking sorry". I thought about it for a second and the memory of Lando talking with a girl and being not himself at the airport came back into my mind, a tear went down my cheek. "How could you?" I screamed at him, he was also in tears "I didn't meant to get you in a car crash" Lando voice was soft and broken. "who was she Lando, who made you act like this?" he looked at his fingers. "My ex", that was it for me, there were so many questions in my head, so many I wanted to ask but I couldn't. 

"leave" was the only thing that came to my mind. "no Nina, let me explain please." I shook my head, "when was the last time you saw your ex?". His tears fel down to his hands, "three weeks ago". that was it, it confirmed everything, he saw his ex when I was almost dying. "LEAVE MY FUCKING HOUSE NOW!"  Lando cried his eyes out, I did the same but I was angry, how could he, how... "No Nina you need to listen what happened, please let me explain", I shook my head "Please leave Lando". He stood up and walked to the door, "Please Nina don't let this be our ending, I lo....I love you", something broke inside of me, I didn't knew if it was my patience or my heart but I couldn't keep it inside anymore. "No Lando, you can't do this. You went to your fucking ex when I almost died because of you". He broke down in tears and that broke my heart, he walked out really fast, I sat at the table and I couldn't go anywhere but I didn't mind because I was broken. Was this it, did we broke each others hearts and let our thing end.

After crying for a long time, I got tired. I needed to get to my bed. I didn't knew what to do, my phone was still upstairs and I couldn't really walk. Max wouldn't stop by anymore, Lando sure wouldn't get back so I was on my own. I stood up and felt that my legs were strong enough to at least walk to the couch. I counted my steps so I wouldn't focus on the pain in my back and almost healed leg. 1....2......3........4......the couch, well that were I had to sleep for tonight I guess, I couldn't get upstairs so the couch was my best option. I started crying again, maybe I shouldn't have been so mad at Lando and he had a good explanation but what if he just though I would die and his ex was his best option. I cried myself to sleep and decided I would maybe call Lando but also the idea of him with his ex made me feel sick. 

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Next day I was awoken by Max, who was mad but also concerned about what happened, "why aren't you in your bed? what happened? Did Lando leave without helping you?" I got up and sat down, Max could see the stains of dried tears. "Lando left when he told me about the day of the crash" Max put his arms around me to comfort me, I cried in his arms "why would Lando do that Max, wasn't I enough for him?" Max didn't respond for awhile and just hugged me before he spoke up again "did he tell you what she told him and why he wasn't himself?" I shook my head and Max let out a laughing sigh, "you should of let him talk, I know you got the same anger issues as me but sometime people have good explanation". I look at Max with a confused face, how could he be on Lando his side. Max stood up and grabbed his phone, he walked to the kitchen were I wouldn't hear him talk. "hey come back, what are you doing?" he came back after a couple minutes and sat down on the couch again, "what did you do Max?" he smiled at me "don't worry about it". 

Me and Max watched a movie, he tried to comfort me as much as possible but I cried most of the time, my heart missed a piece and I couldn't get over how much it hurt. Suddenly the doorbell rang and Max smiled at me, he stood up and grabbed his jacket. "where are you going Max?" Max didn't answer me and just walked out the house, some seconds later Lando stood in the doorway.  He had bloodshot eyes, he looked tired and he couldn't keep his new tears in. He cried and he walked up to me. I opened my arms for him, even when I was mad at him, I still loved him with my whole heart he even owned a piece of my heart. We hugged and cried together until we both calmed a bit down, I played with the ends of his hair, I knew he liked that and I hoped it would calm him down a bit. "I want to explain everything Nina" I nod and looked at him with a small smile, "you can't talk until I finish my explanation, I need you to listen to me"

Lots of Love XX

( I have a question, do you guys want to end this story when we reach chapter 40 or maybe write some more chapters. I don't know what I want, so what do you guys want?)