Fantasy

Natasha Romanoff (My Noodles VI)

Natasha's POV
Side Note: Spoiler alert about the movie Black Widow!

I've debated with myself for at least a couple of minutes on whether I should go inside (Y/n)'s room and comfort her or just give a little space and come back tomorrow

Urrggaaaa! Just go in!

My brain yelled but my body wouldn't budge! The ice pack for (Y/n)'s bruised ankle in my hands are already melting. I've never been this nervous before, why am I so nervous when I just want to comfort and know how she is!?!

Okay, okay, just calm down...take a deep breath

I inhaled and exhaled a couple of times before softly knocking on (Y/n)'s door, I waited for 3 seconds but she didn't answer so I decided to go inside

The TV was on, playing an emotional song in what seems to be a Korean drama, I found her crying, sitting on the floor with an opened chip bag on her side, haven't bothered to look at me

It looks like she had already cleaned herself, I noticed a bandage on her shoulder so she must've also taken care the wound on her waist

I looked at her feet and the bruise was still there, I was already standing beside her so all I had to do was call her "(Y/n)?" the familiar woman, at last, she looked at me, she looked at me with no expression but tears were running down from her eyes to her chin

Her eyes shimmered from the light of the TV like it had crystals inside them while water were coming out of them. I sat right beside her and I could still feel her eyes on me but I didn't paid much attention to it, I gently took her bruised ankle and placed the ice pack on it

She didn't made any noise, she was just silent, I kept the ice pack moving around her ankle for around 15 minutes then I took the elastic bandage that was in my pocket and wrapped it around her ankle, after that I was done and she moved her foot away from me

"Thank you..." she whispered, I turned to her and noticed that she stopped crying, I reached out to her face and wiped away the tears

"What happened?" I asked, she hesitated to answer for a second before answering my question

"He got away for a moment...but we located him a soon as possible-" then I stopped her by cutting her off

"No, I mean...how do you know that guy?" her eyes fell onto her lap when I asked her that question

"Oh..."

"Please, (Y/n)...I want to help you" I said as I took her hand into mine and squeezed it tightly but also made sure I wasn't hurting her, she looked at her hand, the one I was holding, then her eyes averted again

"Okay...it all started when after I...turned 13...everything was going fine, watching the birds and all...it was just usual day...or so I thought..." she stopped talking for a moment and felt her squeezing my hand

"See, I came from an elite and wealthy family...they believed that by keeping the blood pure...we get to be elite...that means that most of my relatives were married to their cousins...but not my mom...I didn't get to know my father because everyone said he died..."

"Did they tell you how he died?"

"They said...he died in a fire..." tears began welling up in her eyes as her breath hitches, I rubbed and helb her hand to give her comfort

"That's okay, you're doing great, (Y/n)"

"My grandfather told me to come inside and that there's someone he'd like me to meet...and that was when I met Dr Ezekiel Rowan, Dr Rowan for short...everything was going normal, he was just talking about why keeping a healthy body is important, I didn't know why he was talking about that since I have a pretty normal and healthy body...then..." she paused, her whole body tensed

"Then?..."

"I began feeling...dizzy and weak...I didn't realized they have drugged the tea I was drinking and after that everything went black...when I woke I was in my bedroom and it was already the next day...my grandmother was right beside me and I asked me what happened...she told me...she told me that...that..." (Y/n) started sobbing and her breathing began more quicker, it looked like she was having a panic attack

"(Y/n), (Y/n), look at me, please, honey, look at me, breathe" she nodded and began doing what I told her "Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale" then she looks like she had calm down a bit "You okay?"

"Y-Yeah, a little more b-better" she stammered and I nodded

"Do you want to continue or do you want to take a break?"

"N-No, I want to go on"

"Okay, just making sure" I looked at, prepared to listen

"She told...me that they have my..." she paused again, I could tell that this was very hard for her, she kept avoiding eye contact with me and she had her mouth open like she was about to say something but there was no voice coming out

"She told me that they have my whole uterus removed" (Y/n) blurred it out so quickly that it took a second or two to process the whole thing in my head

"(Y/n), I'm...so sorry..." now I'm the one who's tearing up

"It's okay..."

"But why would they do that?" I asked

"Umm, weeks later, I heard my grandparents talking...they were talking about my dad...it turns out that my dad was commoner and since my family was so obsessed with keeping the family 'pure'...they killed him by setting his house in fire and removed my uterus to keep everyone to be so called 'pure'..."

"Oh my god...and I'm assuming the doctor who did the procedure was-"

"Dr Rowan, apparently he changed his name to Octovian Epiales...that was the whole reason why I...burned my whole family...I could still remember their screams and their yelling for help-God, I'm a horrible person!" she then covered her face with her hand as she cried

I immediately grabbed her and placed her in my arms, hugged her real tight as I let her cry on my shoulder "You're not horrible person, (Y/n)"

"Y-Yes, I am! I bur-burned them a-alive!"

"We've all done some unforgivable things, we've been through there" then something popped in my head "If it makes you feel any better...I also through the same thing as you" she sniffed and pulled away

"W-What do you m-mean?"

"I also...don't my uterus" she frowned in disbelief

"R-Really? Y-You're not just sa-saying this comfort me, r-right?" she asked, I shook my head and her eyes flickered "Wow..."

"Yeah...the girls who'd enter the Red Room won't get to keep it...none of us gets to keep it..."

"God...I'm sorry..."

"No need, we both went through the same things"

"D-Did you have a childhood before the...R-Red Room?" (Y/n) asked, I chuckled softly and I nodded my head

"Yeah, for a short while right before everything was taken...I had an adoptive parents Alexei and Melina, I also had an adoptive little sister Yelena"

"That's great!...I never really had a childhood...it was just me and myself...My family, including my mom didn't give shit about me other than I'm a disgrace and a shame in the family..." I moved closer and she rested her head on my shoulder

"Well, you're not alone anymore, we're family now, we're here, I'm here" we stayed quiet for a few minutes till I heard light snores, I looked at her and it seems that she has fallen asleep, I smiled and thought to stay with (Y/n) for a few more minutes

I'm here