Fantasy

Mildred Ratched (Lovesick)

(Y/N)'s POV  (It's the late 1940s and y/n is British)

I have been working at Lucia Mental Institution for at least a month as a nurse and it's been going pretty well 

I chose to  become a nurse for a reason, I know you might be thinking 'Oh it's cause I want to help people with mental illness to be cured'.  Sure, I also want people to be cured from their mental illness but that's not why I chose to become a nurse in a mental institution 

I chose to become a nurse in mental institution because I thrown into one before...and it was horrible! 

I was 18 when I got thrown into one. pondering why I got thrown into a menta hospital? 

Well...it's because I was Lovesick. Yes, I was lovesick! I fell in love too hard for a guy. I was young and naive and it was my first time falling in "love"

Our relationship was amazing at first, he would take me to beautiful dates, wonderful places and he would be very romantic and kind until a few months into our relationship everything had started to go more...possessive and more forceful...and I didn't noticed it

I was so blinded by "love" that I couldn't see how intoxicating and abusive he was becoming, everytime I would made a small mistake he would hit me and it would always turn to a intoxicating sex

That is until my neighbours started noticing my bruises and began hearing my screams at night and that was when they called the cops and took me in for questioning and...of course, me being a damn lovesick girl lied to the cops and told them that the bruises on my body was just me being clumsy and kept falling or tripping every time and when they were done questioning me they sent us both back home

But what I didn't know is that they had undercover cops observing us and in the middle of the night they heard me screaming, they burst into the house and saw him with a belt in his hands and he was no-stop hitting me with it 

After the part where he was hitting me with a belt I couldn't remember much and blacked out, the next thing I knew I was in a white room on a bed and I remembered screaming for one thing...my abusive boyfriend 

The nurses would only come when it was breakfast, lunch and dinner to give me my meal and medicine and  4 times a week they would take me for treatments, horrible treatments like the hydrotherapy, shock therapy, physical therapies, not the good one and lastly, isolation therapy and most of the time I'm isolated so I guess that's the isolation therapy 

And after a few months I started slowly opening my eyes and started to realize what my boyfriend did to me was a abusive, once I began to act like a normal person they letted me go at once and the day I was released I asked one of the staffs what happened that night in the house 

They told me when my boyfriend was hitting me with a belt the cops heard and saw me begging for more and I was smiling like I was loving it but in the same time I was crying and one of the cops said that when he looked deeply in my eyes, the truth was that I really needed help 

Then I asked them where my boyfriend...well, ex-boyfriend was and they told me that he was in prison, I thanked them for the information and went to the prison where my ex-boyfriend and paid him a little visit 

I sat down on the chair and in front of me was him, grinning like a psychopath, I took the telephone on the side and placed it on my ear and he did the same"Hi babygirl, missed me?"

"You son of a bitch" then his grin turned upside down "I hope you have fun rotting inside prison fucker!" then I quickly got up and left the facility with a satisfied smile

And that's why I wanted become a nurse in a metal hospital, not to make them go through what I did, sure I opened my eyes to reality but they did so by placing me through those of horrible treatments but maybe I could find another way to cure those people in need, not for them to be tortured by those so called "treatments"

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Anyway, back to the present and it's been 4 years, I'm currently on the information table telling people the information they needed to hear or as some nurses calls it Nurse's station 1, a few minutes has gone by and I am becoming bored, that is when I saw a woman wearing a yellow set of clothes "Hi! What can I do for you?" I asked in a polite tone

"I'm here to speak to Dr. Hanover" the woman said with her raspy voice and her lips covered by a red lipstick

"Um...it depends, who's he going to be speaking with and if it's the press or not" 

"Oh, I'm not the press. I'm new the night shift nurse though Dr. Hanover hasn't technically hired me yet, I'm supposed to have a formal interview with him at 11:00, as this letter clearly states"

"Alright, give me a moment" she then nodded and I quickly left the information table and ran to Dr. Hanover's office where I assumed he was "Dr. Hanover, you are needed in nurse's stati-" I stopped on my track when I saw a group of people gathered around the table "I'm sorry to interrupt but where is-" I was cut off by Nurse Bucket 

"Dr. Hanover is not here, why do ask?" Nurse Bucket said firmly, I've always hated that woman she's always so mean!

"Oh, uhh...there's a woman at nurse's station 1, saying that she's the new night shift nur-" and...ones again, I'm cut off by her speed walking, god! This lady! And of course I have no choice but to follow her and watch her straight up go to that woman 

"Where did you get this?" Oh, boy, here we go again...

"You must the head nurse. I'm M-" 

"I'm not asking for your name. I'm asking where you got the letter?" Damn it, Nurse Bucket! You could of let her introduced first! I wanted to know her name!

And after a second of feed backing each other, they're finally done and Nurse Bucket told me to go back to work and I nodded and as I walking away I mouthed to the woman "sorry" and she simply smiled which also made me smile 

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I was walking back to the nurse's station 1 when I heard noises coming from the vine room, I opened the door and the noises grew louder, the noises sounded like it was coming from the bathroom, I braced myself to what is going to happen next and swiftly opened the door and then I saw Amelia...being fucked! Amelia Emerson! Who has a husband and a child!

I closed the door and quickly began to walk away. Seriously, bitch?! Here? In the god damn hospital?! Is the a way for the gods to tell me that I need to find someone, again?

As I rapidly closed the second door behind me I bumped into someone, falling on top of that person

I opened my eyes and gasped when I saw the same woman from before, she slowly opened her eyes and we both made eye contact, I stared at her dark brown eyes while she stared at my deep blue eyes 

Then her cheeks began to turn red and so did mine which brought me back to reality and I quickly pulled back "O-Oh! Goodness! I'm so sorry! I-I didn't mean to bump into you!" then I looked around to see if anyone was there to witness our embarrassing incident and luckily no one was there but the woman's belongings were scattered all around the place 

"Shit! I'm sorry!" I started picking it up one by one of all her belongings and placed all in her purse and gave it back to her but I try to avoid eye contact with her due to my embarrassment then I heard a something I didn't believe I would hear...A giggle

"Well, aren't you a cute one" she took her purse back and I'm pretty sure she saw me blush once more

Oh, god! Is this me having a crush again? No, I'm feeling somewhat the same with my ex-boyfriend but yet, different...I better hope this would not turn me to lovesick person again but some part of me tells me I won't          

A/N: Guess where I got the title from ;)