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I happily walked to my boyfriend's house after buying some of his favourite foods. I put the key he gave me for his apartment in the keyhole and entered his place "Honey! I'm here! I bought your favourite food from your favourite shop!"
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Hwang In Yeop as Nicholas Do San (Nam Do San in Korean)
I spotted him sitting on the couch and he looked like he was deep in his thoughts, so I put down the food I bought on the table and sat close to him "Hey, what's wrong, honey?" I softly asked while I placed a hand on his cheek
He then shifted from his seat, took my hand into his and looked me deep in my eyes "(Y/n), I want to tell you something..." he said seriously with a hint of sadness
"What is it, Nicholas?" I knew this was very serious because he called me by my real name and as we all know it whenever someone calls you by your real name, that means something serious is about to happen
This could only turn out in two ways, either good or bad and something tells me that this isn't going to turn out good, I can feel in it my bones "Look, I hope you'd be understanding with what I'm going to say next, okay? But I think you will cause you've always been understanding"
"You know how I don't like people making me wait, so please, just say it" I stated, he nodded and took a breath
"I...think we should break up..."
I knew it...
It took me a moment to say something cause I am trying my best to not cry or else, I'd be crying like a river "I knew this would come some point in our lives...but I want to know..." I left him finish my sentence as I didn't know if it's a 'what' or a 'who' or maybe I wasn't enough
My breathing had become laboured, breathing from my mouth now, I could feel my nose being stuffed already "(Y/n), I'm not breaking up with you cause I wasn't satisfied with you, no. You more than loving and caring...but...you and I... are heading in a different path...you want to become famous and achieve things that you never thought you could while I..."
"W-Want to settle down, ge-get married...ha-have a family, built a house..." I nodded softly and attempted to speak straight, but I ended up uttering them
"Am I that predictable?" he joked, trying to lighten things up just a bit and showed an unsure smile
"Yes...a-also...I saw the ring...you ar-aren't exactly great at hiding things..."
"I'm that bad, huh?" I chuckled when he joked and nodded once again "Listen, I know you might want to say that you're ready to marry me and have a life with me, but I don't want you to give up your dreams to be an actress...I've seen how you've geeked out about wanting to meet actors and actresses that you've dreamed of acting with"
He placed a hand on my cheek and pulled his forehead on mine and stared into each other's eyes, his eyes were as pink as mine. However, I already had tears running down my cheeks while his were pooling in his eyes, reading to drop at any moment now
"(Y/n), know that you are amazing! Beautiful as the stars. Unique as every snowflakes. Wonderful from just being you. Kind as someone who can't kill a cockroach. Sweet as a candy. Cheesy as a cheesy string. Funny enough to a comedian. Loving as a teddy bear, I don't know I find teddy bears loving" we both laughed
"Alright, since this might be our last time complementing each other, then I think I should give some too! Um...Charming as a prince. Loyal as a dog. Romantic as every guy should be to their partners. Classic like the Romeo and Juliet novel. Comforting as a blanket in cold days. Enthusiastic as a clown. Crazy as I am crazy for food!" we cackled while we made an effort on lightening at the moment we are in
"Just so you know. You are more than those words I've said. However, some things that we feel are just not meant to be said, but only to be felt instead" my heart ached when he those words because they couldn't be more than true
"I love y-....I have loved you for so many years...I just can't believe that...I never thought we'd brake up like this..."
"Well, how did you thought it'll be?"
"I don't know what I thought..."
"I have loved you too...I just think, this would be the best for the both of us..."
"But we tried, right?" the tears that he was keeping in his finally fell to his cheeks, then he forced a smile even if when his lips was quivering
"Yes, we did!" we pulled each other into hug that might potentially be our last hug
"My time with you were the most greatest moments in my life" I muttered into his shoulder, squeezing him tighter
"Mine was too...you're the whole reason why I'm still here and had made me the person I am now...without you, I'd probably be in some dark place right now"
"And without you, I'd probably never felt what is it to be loved again" I replied
"We should let go now...the more we stay the harder it would be to let go..." I painfully removed myself from him, I took slow and small steps away from him while my hand was still in his, but he was moving with me
I don't want to him go...I really don't...but I have to...
"Goodbye...(Y/n)"
"G-Goodbye...N-Nicholas..." my hand on his will not stay in one another's touch any more longer, I took one more step away and...we've let go
I turned around and left his place. Today was very unexpected, it was the most painful thing I've ever experience in a long time. Letting someone go who you loved dearly will never be easy.
I didn't cry on my way back to my place, when I arrived at my apartment, I did my best to collect myself, saying that everything's going to be okay, but as soon as my eyes landed at the picture of me and Nicholas, I collapsed on my knees and sobbed in my hands
I feel like my whole heart had been ripped off from my chest and all I could feel is the pain of it, it was hurting so bad, but soon it felt numb, I couldn't sense the pain anymore. However, I'm still crying. Hurting, yet no pain to be felt
This is so confusing! Am I in pain? If I am, then why can't I sense it?! If I'm not, then why am I crying?! If I am hurting, then where's the pain!? This doesn't make sense!...None of it does...
I slowly fell on the floor as my vision gradually turns dark till it was completely black. Falling asleep from exhaustion of sobbing for god knows how long. Feeling like the time had slowed down until it completely stopped as I feel like I'm frozen in time
