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Sixteen

"Education is not preparation for life; Education is life itself."

-John Dewey

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"Jessica, pwede ba tayong mag usap?"

Bumilis yung kabog ng dibdib ko nung pag ka bukas ko ng message na yan. It's been three weeks since our karaoke day, and Paolo has been really busy. Last week nga, isang araw lang sya dito sa village namin. Ganun siguro talaga pag college.

His message was sent 3 hours ago. Tumingin ako sa wall clock ko. 7:16AM. Why would he want to talk to me at 4 o'clock in the morning? Lalo bumilis yung tibok ng puso ko, not really sure why. Hindi nya ako ite-text ng ganun ka-aga kung walang nangyari. Something must've happened. And considering the fact na he called me Jessica...

Hindi kaya...

No, no. Hindi magagawa sakin ni Paolo yun. He loves me.

Shaking the thought away, my fingers started to tap my phone para ma reply-an sya. I can hear my heart beating loudly.

To: Paolo Baby <33

"Oo naman babe, pupunta ka ba dito ngayon?"

I tried my best not to look concerned at all. Wala naman akong dapat ika-concern diba? Mahal namin ang isa't isa and it should stay that way. I'm just over-thinking.

Walang pang isang minuto, nag vibrate na kaagad yung cellphone ko.

From: Paolo Baby <33

"Oo. Magkita tayo mamayang 3. I'll just text you where."

Hah? Bakit kailangan pa nyang i-text? hindi nya ba ako pwedeng sunduin nalang dito tulad ng ginagawa nya dati. At this point, i know na kinakabahan ako. Something's up, and I don't like the way how it's affecting Paolo... and I.

Replying with a simple "okay", I stood up and walked towards my window. Tinignan ko yung langit, papasikat palang yung araw, and I just love watching the sun rise, and even the sun set. It's really relaxing. I watched it as the sun slowly makes its way up through the clouds. Then suddenly, may naramdaman akong small arms that wrapped around my waist.

"Hi ate! I missed you!" Boses palang nya na matinis, alam kong si Mae na yun.

I turned around as I grinned down at her, then I hugged her back. Oo nga pala, weekend nanaman. Mag s-sleepover nanaman sila dito hanggang sa Sunday. Gosh, I wouldn't know what to do with my weekends kapag wala sila. It would be very boring.

"Ang aga nyong dumating ah!" I kneeled down to hug her back. "Na-miss mo talaga ako eh noh?"

She nodded. Grabe, napa cute talaga ng batang ito. Kapag nag ka anak kami ni Paolo, gusto ko katulad nya. :') She's so perfect eh. Parang ako lang. Haha! xD

"Halika na, ate." She took my hand and dragged me out of my bedroom. "Let's eat breakfast."

Pag ka baba namin ni Mae, nagluluto na sila mommy and tita Janine. Ang cute nilang dalawa. Para silang mag best friend na sisters, tapos nag b-bonding sa kitchen. Very cute!

"Good morning po." I greeted them. They both looked at me, smiling.

"Oh, gising ka na pala anak." Sabi ni mommy while she chopped the garlic. Ah, para sa fried rice yan. I know her. Hindi buo ang morning nya without fried rice.

"Ikaw talaga, Mae." Sabi naman ni tita Janine. "Baka ginising mo si ate Jessica mo."

"Hindi po, mommy. She was already awake when I went on her room." She reasoned out. Ka-cute!