Dear Diary, Makaka-move on ba ako?

Thirty

"Wow." 

Yan lang ang nasabi ni Xander nang dahan dahan akong mag-lakad pababa sa hagdanan namin habang suot suot ko ang red dress na ito. 

Ganito pala yung feeling kapag nakita mo ang isang tao na nakanganga dahil lang sa kakatitig sayo. Feeling mo ang ganda ganda mo, feeling mo na ikaw ang Ms. Universe. Feeling ko nasa isa akong movie. Tapos slo-mo pa habang bumababa ako. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam. I feel so confident. 

Lumapit sa akin si Xander as I reached the few last steps of the stairs, lending his hand for me. I took his hand,  and he slowly guided me pababa. What a gentleman. 

"Wow, baby." He said, looking at my face for a moment with his eyes widening. Pa iling iling pa sya habang nakangiti. "You just look so fucking..." 

And there he was, so breathless as I grabbed his face with both of my hands and kissed him quickly. I grinned as I pulled back. 

"Well you look good as well, baby." I smirked, nodding in judgment. 

He's wearing a black tuxedo, with a white polo shirt inside that fit him perfectly. It wasn't too tight, it wasn't too lose. It was just right, and it made his body look broader and sexier. His hair was also combed into a simple but mysterious look. He's got a black bow tie around his neck, that he's taking off right now. 

"Oh, bakit mo tinatanggal?" I asked him while I reach for his arms to stop him. 

"Well, I wanna match. I brought 8 colors of bow tie, wishing that your dress matched one of the colors. I'm lucky." He winked at me. "Be right back, baby. Kukunin ko lang sa car." 

He looks at me again from head to toe before he leaves. But before he can even get one step out the door, he came running back and quickly pecked my lips again. 

"You're so fucking hard to resist. Be right back." He kisses me again. "Stay there." 

I sighed as I smile. I feel like i'm on cloud 9. Hindi pa kami nakakaalis ng bahay pero ang saya saya ko na. Paano pa kaya kung nasa prom na kami? I know that people would look down on me since everyone in our school knows everything about what's happening in my life right now. But you know what? I don't give a shit. 

I'm going to enjoy my prom night. With Xander. 

"Oh my princess," daddy called behind me while mommy was standing right beside him. "You look so beautiful tonight, anak." 

"Thank you po, daddy." I smiled and hugged my dad for a second. When I pulled back, they were both looking at each other na para bang nag co-communicate. 

"May problema po-" 

"Nothing, anak." Hindi ako pinatapos ni mommy. "We just want you to be really really happy." 

They both smiled at me, but it just didn't seem right. Alam kong may tinatago sila sa akin.

"Pero mommy-" 

"Oh look, Xander's back." She cuts me off again. "You guys go have fun." 

"Hon, samahan mo na si Jessica sa labas." Sabi ni daddy. "Kakausapin ko lang si Xander." 

And with that, Mommy swiftly took my hand and lead me outside. 

* * * 

Everywhere I go, palaging kasama si Xander. Even if I went in the washroom, nandun sya. Nakasunod pa din sa'kin. It's funny how much we're dependent on each other. Especially right after mahuli ko si Xander at Katie sa cafe. Oh, those moments. 

"Jessica. Huy." Zander snapped his fingers in front of my face. "Did you hear me?" 

With pop songs that every teenager wants to hear blasting through the enormous speaks 10 feet away from me, I didn't hear him at first.