Dear Diary, Makaka-move on ba ako?

Eight (II)

[ Warning: This chapter may contain scenes that are not suitable for young audiences. Mild lang naman. ;) ]

& I dedicate this chapter to my dakilang voter, commenter and friend na si Leanza. :3 Thank you sa pagbabasa teh ;*

Enjoy reading! ;-)

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A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous.

- Ingrid Bergman

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Jessica's POV

"Ano bang kailangan mo ha?"

Pinipilit kong alisin yung pagkakahawak nya sa braso ko but it was too tight. He continued to drag me hanggang sa nasa backyard na kami nila, sa may garden. He didn't speak hanggang makarating kami dun.

"Ano bang problema mo? Nasasaktan na ako." Pumiglas ulit ako but this time he let me go. I rubbed my arm back and forth, nag marka yung fingers nya sa arm ko. Pag eto nag pasa, sasapakin ko tong lalakeng toh.

"Bakit mo sinama yun dito ha?" He looked at me. Natakot ako kasi sobrang seryoso nung mga mata nya. Naririnig ko yung pag hingal nya.

"B-because he's my friend. Gusto nyang makabawi sakin. Yun lang ba?" I turned around. Papasok nalang ulit ako ng bahay, at baka mamaya hindi ko makaya at masabi ko pa sa kanya yung nararamdaman ko.

Na gusto ko sya.

Na mahal ko sya.

"Putang ina naman, Jessica!" I jumped in surprise nung bigla nalang syang humiyaw. Nanigas yung buong katawan ko. I felt like I can't even move a muscle.

"Ganito ka nalang ba lagi tuwing kakausapin kita? Tatalikuran mo ko? Bakit? Kasi nandyan na si Macky? Kasi bumalik na sya sa buhay mo? Kasi nag tagumpay ka nung pinagselos natin sya? Ha? Ganun ba yun, Jessica? Ganun ba?"

"Wala kang alam. " I quietly said. Ayokong mag burst out. Hindi pwede. Para san pa? Eh alam ko naman na hanggang dito nalang kami ni Paolo. Friends.

"Edi ipaliwanag mo sakin! Ano bang ginawa ko? Sinulsulan ka ba nung Macky na yun ha? Did he poisoned your mind? Tell me t-"

"MACKY, MACKY, MACKY! PURO KA NALANG MACKY." I quickly snapped back as I face him. Rinding rindi na yung tenga ko sa kakarinig ng lintik na Macky na yan.

"Bakit? Totoo naman diba? Kaya ka lumalayo sakin ngayon kasi may Macky ka na." He walked towards me. As he was standing in front of me, he held me by shoulders. "Sasaktan ka lang nun ulit, Jessica. Sasak-"

"Wala kang alam, Paolo. Kaya please, tama na. Hinihintay na nila tayo sa loob." Mahinahon kong sabi. Ayoko nang gumawa ng scandalo dito. Ayokong malaman nya na nag seselos ako. Ayoko. Ayoko.

Dahan dahan kong tinanggal yung mga kamay nya sa balikat ko, and I stepped back. Pinapanood ko lang sya. He sat at the ground, he was massaging the temples of his forehead. His palm was covering half of his face.

"Bakit mo ako iniiwasan? Hindi ka nag rereply sa text ko, yung tawag ko, wala. Lagi mo akong tinatalikuran. Sabihin mo naman kahit yung dahilan lang, please, ayoko ng ganito." Tumingin sya sa langit, but I saw that his eyes were getting red.

Umiiyak ba sya?

Umiiyak ba sya dahil sakin?

Dahil sa iniiwasan ko sya?

Bakit?

Eh diba may Lea naman sya? He doesn't need me anymore. There's someone who can always text him, talk to him, entertain him. Si Lea.