Dear Diary, Makaka-move on ba ako?

Eleven

"You don't develop courage by being happy in your relationships everyday. You develop it by surviving difficult times and challenging adversity."

- Epicurus

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Jessica's POV

"Anong ginagawa mo dito?"

I asked him, habang nakatitig ako dun sa diary na hawak hawak nya. I felt Mae's hand grip tighter around mind. Nagulat nalang ako nung biglang kumawala sa hawak ko si Mae and she ran towards Paolo and started to hit him on his legs.

"I hate you! Get out of here! You hurt my ate Jessica!" She was shaking her head habang pinapalo pa din nya si Paolo with all that she can. Nakatingin lang sakin si Paolo, emotionless. "I thought you're a good boy! You're a bad bad boy!"

When I saw him looking at me... A part of me wanted to just run to him and hug him as tight as I can. But then I remembered the last time when he was standing right in front of me. And when he looked at me in the eye, he even said that I never mattered to him...

I looked away before I start to cry. Bakit ganun? I can't even bare to look at him now. There's too much pain, and kapag nakikita ko sya, yun pa din ang laging pumapasok sa isip ko.

Nilapitan ko si Mae, and I slowly and gently took her arm and pulled her away from him. Tinignan ko yung diary sa kamay nya. At this point, I don't even care kung nabasa na nya lahat. It doesn't even matter anymore. Nangyari na ang lahat.

"You can keep it." I looked at him. "Pero please, wag mo na muna akong kausapin."

I pushed Mae towards me this time and we turned around and started to walk pabalik dun sa Condo nila. Ano bang ginagawa nya dito? Pano nya nalaman na nandito ako sa Makati?

Bakit kung kelan mag mo-move on na ako, tsaka sya mag papa-ramdam ulit?

Ayun na eh. Andun na ako. I was willing to give up everything. But why did he show up? Bakit ngayon pa? Back to zero nanaman ba ako?

Nag lalakad na kami papunta dun sa elevator when suddenly, I can hear footsteps behind us. When I looked around, it's him. He's still holding my diary while he's looking at me. Bakit nya ba kami sinusundan?

I increased our pace until Mae and I reached the elevator. As I stepped inside, Paolo was about to go with us. I pushed him away by his shoulder.

"Ano ba, Paolo? Please, stop following me."

Pumasok pa din sya na parang walang nakikita and stood beside Mae. Tumingin sakin si Mae na nakakunot yung ulo habang nag salubong yung eye brows nya. Galit na galit talaga sya kay Paolo. Haaay, Mae.

"Who says i'm following you? Pupunta ako sa condo ng lola ko."

Shit. I remember now. Naalala ko na nung sinabi nya sakin na nakatira sila sa Makati dati bago sila lumipat dun sa Maclure Village. Pero bakit dito pa? Ano ba yan? Talaga bang pinag tatagpo kami? It's such a small world, but I wasn't expecting this. Kung alam ko lang edi sana hindi ako nag bakasyon dito.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY T-T

Nung tinignan ko sya, there was a smile that formed his face pero nung he caught my eye, that smile faded away. I looked away from him.

Nung pumunta na yung elevator sa 7th floor, I stepped out of the elevator and Mae did as well. I looked back at him before the elevator closed. Kitang kita ko yung pag tingin nya sakin. It was one of his gazes that send me shivers down my spine.

That guy... I really loved that guy.

"I love you." I whispered, but it was too late. The elevator closed before I can even say it to him.