Dear Diary, Makaka-move on ba ako?

Thirty Three

Ang ganda na n'ya ngayon.

Makinis, mas lalong pumuti, mas gumanda, n mas sumexy, naging mapera, and the way she dresses now... Fuck, is this my fucking karma? Tang ina, kung alam ko lang na gaganda s'ya ng ganun edi hindi ko na sana s'ya iniwan.

Akala ko ba kapag iniiwan ang mga magagandang bagay , pumapanget? Eh bakit mas lalo syang gumanda? Argh, this is pissing me the fuck off.

"Is there a problem?" Tanong sakin ni Katie habang hinahalikan nya ang leeg ko. I took a gulp from the glass of wine i'm holding. "You're so quiet."

"It's nothing." I lied.

Yes, isang buwan nanaman wala ang asawa ni Katie kaya ako na-naman ang nag fi-fill in sa needs n'ya. But I just can't seem to focus tonight. Bawat halik na ibigay ko kay Katie, it just reminds me when I was kissing Jessica before.

At ngayon na kasal na sya, i'm pretty sure na hinding hindi na ulit mangyayari yun.

At akalain mo yun? Kay Paolo pa? Putang ina di'ba? Sa dinami dami ng ibang lalake sa mundo, yung putang inang Paolo Flores pa na yun? Ah, pano nag tagpo ang landas nila?

Well, nag kwento s'ya sakin kanina habang nasa office ko kami na nag sh-shopping daw s'ya sa United States nun, kasi mas mura ang taxes kesa sa Canada. Then they just bumped into each other.

As if she expects me to believe that? That's fucking bullshit. I'm pretty sure she begged him to come back to him. Pero tatanga tanga naman tong lalaking toh, pumayag naman. Like seriously, she fucking cheated on you, and now you're with her again?

Wait... That's the point. Oh fuck, Xander. You're a genius.

Kung nakaya nyang lokohin si Paolo para sa'kin nood, kaya n'ya din ngayon.

I stood up from the bed with this bright idea in my head. Tama, yun nga. I can make her mine again. I know, I can. She's just a girl after all, and I already did it once.

Mag hintay ka lang, Jessica. You're going to be mine again.

I start to take all my stuff and put my clothes back on. It's a wonderful night, and hindi na ako makapag hintay sa mga magaganap. She's my client, and of course, I get to spend time with her.

A lot of time.

"Where the hell are you going?" Tanong sakin ni Katie as I reach for the door knob.

"None of your business."

* * *

"I trust you with your designs, Xander." She politely said habang naglalakad kami sa loob ng bahay nila. "I just have one request."

She stopped walking when we reached her room before. Pumasok kami sa loob, and I just looked at her. Ibang iba na sya. Hindi na sya yung Jessica na kilala ko dati.

"What is it?" I asked her.

"I want this room to be a nursery." She smiled as she looks at me.

"N-Nursery?" I asked.

"Yes, a nursery." She nodded. "Pero gusto ko na unisex ang theme nya. After all, I don't know what the gender would be."

"You're pregnant?" I asked, my eyes widening.

"Oh no, silly." She laughs. "But we've been trying."

This... This is insane. Alam kong mag asawa sila, pero how can I fucking get her back if she's planning on starting a family with him? Hindi, hindi pwede toh.

"I'm sorry, but I hindi na yun kasama sa trabaho ko." I bluntly said.

"Oh? Well, I guess I could tell Mr. Concepcion to get a new arch-"