Dear Diary, Makaka-move on ba ako?

Twenty Three (R)

(This chapter is for Cholé, a person who pushed me so hard to write this chapter. Thank you for being so supportive. <3)

W A R N I N G :

This chapter contains scenes that are not suitable for young audiences. Please have an open mind, and if you're uncomfortable with these type of scenes, please feel free to skip this chapter.

Read at your own risk. You have been warned. ;-)

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"There is a charm about the forbidden that makes it unspeakably desirable."

-Mark Twain

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I have no idea what's going on.

As I lay my head against the head board, I watch Xander make his way towards me until he's in front of me. He looks at me from my eyes then down to my chest, stopping there as he tilt his head in a manner where it looks like i'm an art in a museum that he's examining. He slowly leans down, his hands against the bed, just right beside my thighs.

I suddenly felt his warmth. I felt his radiance, and it felt good.

"Jessica," he whispered. "Hindi ka dapat niloloko."

He leans even closer, and suddenly I can feel my body becoming hot. He gazes in my eyes, then he reaches for my face as he caress my cheek with his thumb.

"You deserve to be taken care of." He suddenly pulls me into a hug, his muscular arms enveloping me gently. He straddles me as he hugs me, his chin resting on my shoulder. Then he tilts his head a little, just to make his lips touch my ear. I felt his warm breath as he breathes, and it made me hold my breath for some reason. It's becoming hard to breathe when Xander's this close to me.

"You deserve to be valued," he kisses my neck slowly, stopping and lifting his lips after each and every kiss. He makes his way up to my cheek, and as he reaches the corner of my mouth, he stops. "You deserved to be cherished."

"Xander, I-I..." No words wanted to come out of my mouth. I feel like my body has been dipped into cement, and I just can't move.

"You deserve to be kissed," he kisses my lips tenderly, slowly and gently. His soft warm lips felt velvety towards mine. He expertly moves his lips, tilting his head whenever he can. I never wanted for this to happen. I don't know what's going on. Bakit ganito? Why am I not able to stop myself pag dating kay Xander?

"Like this." He slips his tongue inside, my mouth voluntarily taking his, letting him explore my mouth. Our tongues slowly collided on each other, and as he got the chance, he sucks on it a little. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to me. I can't help it. My body has given up on resisting him. I just can't do it. No matter how hard I try, hindi ko talaga kaya.

I held him tightly, and as I did, I felt his lips form a smile against my lips. I smiled as well, until he bit my lip hard. So hard that i thought it's going to give me a cut. Pero kahit na masakit, the sensation was there. It made me want him. All of him.

"You deserve to be touched." he said as he pulled back. Dahan dahan nyang hinaplos yung legs ko, simula sa mga tuhod ko, paakyat sa aking mga hita. His other hand travelled in my arm to my shoulder, and as he reached my shoulder, he ever so slowly moved his hand to my neck, gripping on it lightly.

Then he presses his lips on mine again, rougher this time, his hand still in my neck. I moan a through his lips when he took my bottom lip again, but nibbling it this time. And as I moan, his hand gripped tighter around my neck.