Dear Diary, Makaka-move on ba ako?

Twenty

" Some of the toughest things in this world are to really want someone and not have them around you. Those are the times when you don't know what to do. All you can do for is wait."

- Tamara Louis

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"Anong ginagawa mo dito?"

Sabay naming tanong ni Ms.Tee sa isa't isa. Xander quickly let go of Ms.Tee's embrace, then steps aside. Tinignan nya si Xander with her worried eyes, but her gaze was then transfered to me.

"Gumagawa po kami ng project ma'am." I politely answered. Ako yung nakakabata, and kahit na nasa labas na kami ng school, I should still respect her. Wala namang masama kung ako yung unang sumagot sa tanong. "Kayo po ba?"

"I'm... tutoring. Yeah, I tutor Xander." Panicked na sagot nya. Patingin tingin pa sya kay Xander habang nag sasalita sya but Xander's just staring at the both of us. Well it will make sense kung bakit magaling sa art si Xander kung tutor nya si Ms. Tee.

But the hug...? Was that necessary?

"You can tell her the truth," Biglang nagsalita si Xander. "I can trust her."

I heard Ms.Tee take a deep breath, closing her eyes. Nagtinginan silang dalawa ni Xander na parang nagkakausap at nagkakaintindihan sila with just eye contact. What does Xander mean though? The truth? Hindi kaya...

May relasyon sila? .____.

I mean, I don't judge them. Hindi ko sila huhusgahan. Pero bakit di man lang sakin sinabi ni Xander na nakamove on na pala sya? Edi sana mas madali ko syang natulungan diba? Tsaka sana kung alam ko na may relasyon sila edi sana hindi na ko nang hihimasok sa buhay nya. Edi sana hindi ko na sya pinuntahan dun sa rooftop nung nag dradrama sya. Edi sana hindi ko nalang sya naging kaibigan.

Hindi ko naman sila isusumbong sa school eh. I know na forbidden yung love nila, pero they can trust me. I will keep my mouth shut, kasi kaibigan ko si Xander. And I ayoko nanaman na masaktan sya. Tsaka mas matanda si Ms.Tee sa kanya, so alam kong aalagaan nya si Xander. Pero sana man lang sinabi nya sakin ng maaga. Nakaka-move on na pala sya eh,he doesn't need my help anymore. He doesn't need me anymore.

Actually, it makes actual sense. Nung nag walk out si Xander sa classroom nung nakaraan, si Ms.Tee yung humabol sa kanya instead of me. Yeah, maybe I could've paid more attention...

"Jessica?," Ms.Tee called, pulling me away from my thoughts. "Nakikinig ka ba?"

"Sorry, ano po yun?," I asked."I think alam ko na kung ano yung gusto nyong sabihin sakin na sikreto nyo."

"What do you mean?" Xander asked, his eyes narrowing.

"Na may relasyon kayo ni Ms.Tee," I paused and looked at her then I looked at him again. "Sinabi mo man lang sana sakin, Xander. I thought you trusted me?"

They both stared at each other for one long minute while i'm left here standing, looking at them. Nagulat nalang ako nung bigla silang tumawa dalawa. Halos ma-iyak iyak pa si Xander sa sobrang kakatawa.

"What's so funny?" I asked. Tumatawa pa din silang dalawa, habang si Xander naman halos hindi na makahinga sa sobrang kakatawa. Unti unti namang naka get over si Ms.Tee. Salamat naman. -.-

"Boyfriend ko?," Ms.Tee managed to ask kahit na tawang tawa pa din sya. "Si Xander?"

I shrugged, tinignan ko si Xander na napaupo na sa floor. Ganun ba talaga ka funny yung sinabi ko at nag re-react sya ng ganito? I mean, what the hell?

"Kapatid ko sya, Ms.Garcia." Ms.Tee said, smiling at me. Si Xander naman eh unti unti na din nakaka get over. Grabe ha, mukha ba akong payaso. -.-