Chasing Love

CHAPTER 30

Disney said they live happily ever after. Well I guess I also live happily. I have a stable job and I have a child. An adorable daughter that will never leave me no matter what.

Nakangiti kong pinagmamasdan si Andrei habang buhat-buhat ng Papa niya. Ngayon ko lang na kita ang ganyang ngiti ng anak ko. Ngayon ko lang nakita 'yung ibang klaseng kislap sa mata niya. 

Pakiramdam ko ang sama ko dahil halos pitong taon ko siyang pinagkait kay Andrew. Pakiramdam ko ang sama ko dahil huli ko na pinaramdam sa kanya kung gaano ka saya ang magkaroon ng ama.

I feel bad for doing it pero wala na akong magagawa dahil nangyari na. All I could do right now is to support her whatever she wanted. All i could do is to allow her to be with her father. 

"Mama, come here,"Andrei shouted. I smile and run towards them. Agad na bumaba si Andrei kay andrew at hinawakan ang kamay ko.

Seeing her happy makes me happy too. I can't be happy without her. God give her to me dahil alam ko si Rei lang ang makakapagpasaya sa akin. I been in the dark years ago, akala ko hindi ko na kayang bumangon pa, akal ko patuloy akong makukulong ang sakit at lungkot but then Andrei came into my life.

She gave me hope, she's the reason why I became strong despite everything. She's the reason why I choose to fight, why I'm still alive. Kung hindi siya dumating baka nagawa ko ding tapusin ang buhay ko.

Everything really happens for a reason. There will alway be a purpose why all of the things happen. 

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"What's your plan now?"elle asked

Humarap ako sa kanya at ngumiti "Nothing. Ano bang dapat kong gawin?"tanong ko at agad na umiwas ng tingin.

My friends always asked me what my plan was about Andrew. To be honest I don't have any plans. Ano bang dapat kung gawin? To bring back the old times? Everything changes. Wala ng dapat ibalik pa. I'm happy now bakit pa 'ko hihiling ng mas mahigit pa do'n?

"You still love him right?"She asked

Tumawa ako "I don't. My love for him already faded years ago. I'm done pursuing him,I'm done chasing him."Saad ko at ngumiti.

Minsan may mga bagay talaga na kahit anong pilit nating gawin hindi na pwedeng ibalik. I'm happy that he was once part of my life and that I became happy with him. He still has a part in me but not as before.

Andrew made me experience how special I am. He made me experience real happiness. Yes it's painful that we're happy before but didn't end up together. Pero wala tayong magagawa do'n dahil hindi lahat ng bagay ay pang habang buhay.

I still remember what he said when we're in senior high school. That every relationship has broken up. I didn't regret that he became my boyfriend. Hindi ako nagsisi na naging boyfriend ko 'yung taong dapat kaibigan lang.

Our friendship ruined because of our relationship pero hindi ako nagsisis do'n dahil kung hindi nangyari 'yon walang Andrei sa buhay ko. I'm happy that I once fall in love with my best friend because of that I have a adorable little girl.

"I'm happy for you...pero wala na ba talaga?"she asked

"Ayoko ng ipilit pa Elle. let's accept na hindi porket siya ang first love mo, hindi porket mahal na mahal niyo ang isa't isa at may anak kayo ay magiging kayo hanggang dulo."saad ko at tumingala

"May mga bagay na mahirap talaga intindihin kasi nasanay tayo na pagdating sa dulo palaging may happy ending ang isang babae at lalaki pero sa kwento ng buhay ko? Yes I have a happy ending pero hindi siya kagaya sa disney."