How much longer will it take to forget about you completely?
For not even a faint flicker of pining to occur?
For not even a slight feeling to stir?
To see your name and have it mean nothing but a name, neutral?
To not fall down or flare with affection?
To be rid of this affliction?
Some say you never really forget your first love
Me, I hope they're wrong
Or do I?
The memory of you, so tantalizing, acutely excruciating, yet such a treat to treasure,
I like to call it an exquisite scar
You left a permanent mark on me, for better or for worse
Sometimes I wish I could've known everything you'd mean to me, both good and bad, before we met, before I entrusted you with a piece of my soul, so I could have prepared
For all these long nights, avoiding you, but seeing you everywhere, seeking you everywhere
Actions causing me equal pain
But then, would I have wanted to know you?
Yes, I confess, I still would, I still would
How could I not?
That's when I think it'd be more fatal if I forgot
