What's a Riddle?

Roxanne

    | Warning: This chapter has mentions of depression, and deep thoughts. If you're sensitive to any of these topics. Either read with caution, or go to the next chapter. You could also find another book to read. It's not my intention to trigger anyone in anyway. |

               It's been two weeks. It's been two weeks since I watched Tom go away in a train, and the pain still hasn't gone away. I've been trying to distract myself with the locations that my father left, and I've actually done all of them...except one. But I'm just too fucking tired of trying to ignore my pain. I've been doing it for so many years, and it's destroyed me. Harry has been preparing for the next battle at Hogwarts which is him against the other side. But I don't care anymore, I don't even want to fight. I just want to stay in bed, and feel nothing. And that's what I've been doing. The only person who's been trying to get me out of bed is Pansy. But there is nothing she could do that would make me want to get better. I honestly don't think I can get better. This hurts too much.
"We need to go for a walk!" Pansy yells. "Why?" "Because we might not have much longer together, and we need to talk." "Whatever." "Get your goddamn coat. I need you, and you need me." She grabbed my arm, and dragged my from the bed to the outside. "Where are we even going?" "To a mountain." "That's so far." "We're not walking. I know a spell that can transport us there." "Yeah I know it too." "Just let me do this." "Fine." In a matter of seconds we transported onto a small mountain by a little river.
   She sat me down on a rock, and starred at the river. "Roxanne?" "Yes?" "I'm worried we might die in the battle." "I'm not fighting." "Then where will you be?" "I don't know. Far way from here." "Just promise you will be alright." "I don't know. I hope I will." "You know I'm always here for you." "You always have been." "Exactly. So talk to me." "What would you like to know?" "Anything." I took a deep breath as I could feel my hands getting cold and clammy. "Pans...do you know what it feels like to be in love with someone?" "I don't usually give that away to people." "Neither do I. But it happened to me." "I know you fell in love with T-." "This was a different love. This wasn't a basic buy roses and give kisses love. This felt like a life love. It felt like I found the missing piece of my life. It was the glue that kept me happy, and relaxed. It made me realize there is more to life than just making myself miserable. And when you find something like that, and it's taken away from you. You feel like someone has just forced you to watch your entire family be tortured in front of you. You can hear their screams, see their tears, feel their pain, and desperation. Tom saved my life, and now he's not in it anymore." "I feel like the more you connect with other people than yourself makes you realize that you have no purpose." "I know. That's why I never trusted anyone before Tom, and I feel like I've been dragged back to the same place. But worse." "I think the both of us have to accept our pain, and try to get rid of it." "I've been trying to get rid of my pain for so long, and I don't think it will ever go away." "Not unless you go back to the place you started." Her face turned pale again, and I saw some tears run down her face. "I love him so much." "I know you did. But we have a few days until we could possibly die. You might not fight with Hogwarts, and I might back out. But the important thing is we made one last conversation in case we never see each other again. And that's what is important." "You're right." "I know I am." She chuckled. "Is that a chuckle?" "No." "I'm sure it was." "Shut up!" "I love you best friend." "I love you too."
   We grabbed each others hand and admired the river flow at a perfect speed. It was nice to make a moment with Roxanne. She will, and always will be..my best friend.