Mindscape

October 2021

Damn, it really has been a couple of years hasn't it? Last update was in 2019 when my poor pup was recovering from surgery, and it's been a whirlwind ever since. I got diagnosed with major depression and anxiety, and Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. I went back to college and graduated that December, got a job about a month later and moved in with a friend's grandparents, and Covid hit a couple months after that. It's been a lot of ups and downs since then.

I didn't immediately lose my job, but my industry took a hit and they kept me on for as long as they could. It was seasonal anyway, and we managed as well as we could until the season ended. My best friend came to live with their grandparents with me because our college shut down, so at least we got to spend that time together. I shaved my head for the first time. When school opened back up and they moved back into the dorm, my work season ended and I moved back in with my parents.

I got another job in the bakery of a grocery store and that was fine for a few months. They hired me at the start of the busy season, and the hustle and bustle led me to a shoulder injury in early 2021. I tried to cope with it for about a month before my doctor recommended I find other work. It was an easy decision to make because aside from that, I had a very toxic coworker that was two-faced and lazy. She would pass off work to me and act nice, and then talk about everyone behind their backs and cry when confronted, leaving me alone to pick up her slack. I think my injury was partially because I was having to do her job as well as mine. I quit in February and got my old seasonal job back.

I ended up traveling from home to the job, so they paid me a little extra, and Covid measures had gotten a bit more lax, so we had a successful season. After it ended, I couldn't find work for a few months until I got hired on at a craft store, which is where I am now. I'm also in the process of moving in with a friend, which is doing wonders for my mental health. I love my family, but they can be very smothering. I'm in the most stable position I've ever been in. I enjoy the work I'm doing, and even if it's exhausting at times, I'm earning decent money. I'm hoping it'll be enough to start paying off my student loans since they've been deferred until January 2022, so I'll have a few more months to save up. I'm also hoping to start a little side business selling crochet and knitted items.

It... feels good to be back here. I haven't written in so long, and it was my primary method of coping for a long time until I got too busy for it. I think it would've helped these past couple of years. Hindsight is 20/20 isn't it? I can't promise I'll be here more often, but I'm hoping to update at least occasionally.