I Got Pregnant!

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"I.. uhmm, I.."

Say it! Shit.

"You know buddy, I think..." what?

"Sweetheart, what are you doing there? Bakit hindi ka pumapasok?" Halos mapatalon ako ng magsalita si mommy sa likod ko. Napahawak pa ako sa dibdib ko.

"Geez mom, don't do that again. I almost had heart attack." Napalakas ang boses ko.

I saw amusement in her eyes.

Lumabas rin ng kwarto si Hayes at Drew na nagtataka ang mukha.

"What's happening here?" Nakakunot-noong tanong ni Drew.

"Nothing." Maikli kong sagot.

"Nope. She's eavesdropping." Sabat naman ni mommy.

"Mom! I'm not. I'm here to check Hayes if he's awake."

I heard her chuckled. "Ok. Sabi mo eh."

"Whatever mom. Let's go Hayes. Eat your snack." Narinig ko pang tumawa si mommy.

"Kanina pa sya dyan?" Tanong ni Drew pero tumawa lang si mommy.

Ugh! Pahamak ang nanay ko.

"Anong gusto mong kainin?" Tanong ko kay Hayes nang makarating kami sa kitchen.

"I want pizza."

"We don't have pizza here honey. How 'bout waffle?" Tanong ko dito.

"He wants pizza." Napatingin ako sa lalaking kakapasok pa lang sa kitchen.

"But we don't have pizza here." Inirapan ko lang sya.

"Edi bumili sa labas o kaya magpadeliver."

"Kung bibili pa sa labas o magpapadeliver, nalipasan na ng gutom ang anak ko." Naghanap na lang ako ng pwedeng makain ni Hayes.

"I'm not really hungry." Hayes.

"You wanna go out buddy? To grab some pizza?" Tanong nito kay Hayes.

"He's not going. Uwi ka na. Go."

"Sure dad. Let's go." Napatingin ako kay Hayes na nakatingin kay Drew. What the? Seriously?

Tiningnan ko ng masama si Drew. He just smirked and shrugged his shoulder. Ugh

"Come on." Pagyayaya nito kay Hayes. Tumayo naman si Hayes at lumapit kay Drew.

"Mom, are you coming?"

Tiningnan ko muna ng masama si Drew. If looks could kill, matagal na 'tong patay eh. But I can't do that. Sayang sya.

"No honey. Have fun. Behave. Ok?"

"I will mom." At nauna na itong lumabas. Kaya naiwan kami ni Drew sa kusina.

Lalabas na sana ito ng hilahin ko ang laylayan ng shirt na suot nito.

"What are you up to?" Pinamewangan ko pa sya.

"What?" He look innocent. Tsk.

"What my ass. Don't play innocent."

"What? What did I do?" Tatawa-tawa pang tanong nito.

"Ugh! You're impossible." And I walked out. Walang kwentang kausap.

"Hey wait!" Tawag nito sakin kay humarap ako. And may lips landed to his lips. Ugh! So tricky!

"Later baby."

Napako na lang ako sa kinatatayuan ko habang pinapanuod syang lumabas ng kusina.

"Whoa. What a scene." And I saw my mom.

"Mom!" Lagi na lang bang nanay ko ang makakasaksi ng mga kahihiyan ko sa buhay? Well, kahihiyan ba ito? Ugh! Whatever.

"Do you love him?" Nanlaki mata ko sa tanong ni mommy.

"What? No! I have a boyfriend. Mom, what made you think of that?"

"Relax. I'm referring to Greg." Kumuha ito ng tubig sa ref.

"What kind of question is that? Of course I love him. He's my boyfriend." Sumandal ako sa sink at tumitig kay mommy.

"Hindi porke boyfriend mo sya eh mahal mo na." What?

"What do you mean?  Mom, he was there when I was on my lowest point. He saved me from loneliness and sadness." Napayuko ako pagkatapos kong sabihin yan.

Tinabihan ako ni mommy at sumandal din ako sa sink.

"Siguro sya lang ang masasandalan mo ng mga panahon na malungkot ka. Sya lang ang nandun para icomfort ka. And because he was there for you, you thought that you love him." Natigilan ako.

But no! I know I love him, right?

"Mom, we're dating for 1 and a half years. I know I love him. And he love me too." I'm right, right?

"Or baka nasanay ka lang sa presence nya." Umalis na ito sa tabi ko at hinarap ako. "How much do you love him? Kagaya ba ng pagmamahal mo kay Drew?"

Whoa, ibang usapan na yan.

"Iba naman yun eh. Drew? I met him first. We have a child, remember? But he hurt me." Sagot ko.

"I'm asking you if you love Greg.  Kagaya ng pagmamahal mo kay Drew." Pangungulit pa rin sakin ni mommy.

"Mommy, first love ko si Drew. Malalim ang pagmamahal na binigay ko dun. Kaya nga nabuo si Hayes diba. I almost gave everything to him. But he chose to hurt us, to hurt me." I pause. Naktingin lang sakin si mommy. "And Greg, he's always there for me. I-I love him." Halos pabulong na lang na sabi ko. "And no, hindi kagaya ng pagmamahal ko kay Drew ang pagmamahal ko kay Greg. But I'm trying. I'm trying to love him like how I loved Drew. Pero mahirap eh. Ang hirap pilitin. There's a little part of my heart that beats for Drew. Maybe love and hate collide. I don't know mom. I'm freakin' confused."

Hinawakan ni mommy ang magkabila kong balikat. "Sky, sweetheart, listen to your heart. Ikaw lang din naman ang makakaayos ng kalituhan mo. I'm always here to support you." And she kissed my forehead before leaving me in the kitchen. More confused.

Napalingon ako sa may pintuaan when I heard something. Parang may tao. Meron bang nakikinig sa usapan namin kanina?

Naglakad ako papunta sa may pinto. Wala naman tao. Namamalikmata lang siguro ako. But before I leave, I saw something on the floor. It was a hanky. And I know kung kanino 'to. It's Drew's.

Nahulog nya siguro kanina. So pinot ko nalang at umakyat na sa kwarto.

Napaisip din ako sa sinabi ni mommy.

Mahal ko pa ba si Drew? Kasi kong hindi na, wala na akong mararamdaman na kahit ano sa kanya. Damn! I'm really confused. I need answers from myself. Pero hindi ko rin alam kong ano ba ang isasagot ko. Ugh! Drew, ano bang ginawa mo sakin?