Accident

Chapter 21

"Felix?", Chan asks and we hear sniffs from the closed door. "Hey Felix. Its me Chan. Can I come in? I have someone with me", Chan asks like a dad.

We hear how a door gets unlocked and Chan breath out.

He nods to me to get in.

I open the door and go in. I close the door slowly behind me and look around in the room. I see a bed and someone hiding under the blanket.

I sit down on the bed and look at the blanket. "Hey", my voice is shaky I don't know why. The person under the blanket moves. "Sis?", he asks.

His voice is silently and raspy. "Yes", I say and Felix pulls the blanket away from his head.

It breaks my heart to see his face like this. His eyes are really REALLLY red and his face is full of dried tears.

He pouts at me and I almost cry. "Oh no Lix. Why are you so sad?", I ask worried. "Because..because I was not able to protect you", he says and starts to cry again.

I look at him and rub his shoulders. "What do you mean?", I ask. But he just pulls me down next to him and hugs me tight.

"I should have noticed your body language. I knew you for so many years and I knew something was off but I just didn't want to recognize it. I thought you where fine and it was just a phase. You mean so much to me and I wanted to protect you..but I failed", he sobs.

My eyes start to tear up and the whole stress comes up. I always tried to hide the stress, the overwork, the tiredness and the anxiety deep down in me.

I thought I could just pretend everything is fine, but now I see

I cant.

My tears stream down and fall on Felix shirt. "Lix you didn't fail me. Im sorry to make you cry. Its just it was too much. I wanted to be strong and pretend like everything is okay but its not. I really couldn't take it anymore. I didn't want to eat any food, because that meant I have to diet longer. Please don't be mad", I tell him and cry my heart out.

All the pain I had to go throw I cry it all out.

Felix pats my back "Its okay Sis. Cry it all out. Im here for you. Im not mad you here. At least not at you.

Im just mad at the staffs. I know your not the youngest trainee, who's in the industry, but your still young. I was the same age as you as a trainee. But they didn't treat me that bad.

I am just so mad that they made those horrible things", Felix says angry but still soft. I continue to cry and loop my legs around his waist.

He whispers soft, sweet and loving words into my ear. I feel how the tiredness slowly kicks in and my eyes shut down.

Someone is stroking my hair softly. I yawn and open my eyes. I see Felix smiling at me softly (A/N: is it okay if Im just gonna call him Lix from now one? I don't know just gonna do it).

"Do you sleep good princess?", he asks me in his deep voice. I nod and lay on his chest. He chuckles, what sends chills through my body.

I burry my face in his neck and he continues to stroke my hair. "I never slept so good, since almost four year", I tell him and he smiles.

Its true, I can not really fall asleep since the dead of my parents and my sister. I just sleep light and wake up at almost every sound.

"What time is it?", I ask Lix. He takes his phone out of his trouser and looks at the time.

"Almost five pm", he tells me and jump up. "I have to go to...", I stop my sentence and lay down again.

"Never mind. I don't want to", I say and Lix laughs. "What do you have to do?", he asks interested.

"Just some homework, but its not that important", I tell him and he nods.

We are talking, when my stomach suddenly starts to growl. Lix looks at me "Lets search for something to eat for you", he says and we stand up.

"Oh wait, you shirt is dirty", Lix noticed. I look at my shirt and see a dirty part. "Here, wear this", he says and throws a hoodie of him at me. 

He leaves the room and I take off the shirt to put on the hoodie.

I walk out of the room and search for Felix. I walk into Chan. He smiles at me and pats my hear.

"You look cute in his hoodie", he tells my and I blush. He laughs "Come, I show you where he is", I follow him and we walk in a kitchen.

Lix is standing there and is looking into the fridge. "What is the problem mate?", Chan asks Lix in English. "Wait a moment your Australian?", I say shocked.

"Yeah", Chan smiles. "Wait so your telling me you made me struggle so hard to talk in Korean? Even if you could speak English?", I ask him and he smirks. I roll my eyes in annoyance.

He was a lot of times with me and Lix. I always talk in English with Lix but Chan always talked in Korean to me. Even he heard me talking in English.

"You did her dirty Chris", Lix giggles and I look at him. "Wait I'm so confused. Your name is Chris?", I look at him.

"So my Korean name is Chan, but my English name is Christopher", he explains. "Ahh, so can I call you Channie?", I ask and he looks at me surprised.

"Sure, why not. Call me Channie oppa", he says.

After I finished my conversation with Channie oppa he goes to his room.

Apparently Channie Oppa, Lix and Changbin share one room. "We don't have any food here. What do you want to eat? I will order", Lix says and takes his phone out.

"Hmm I don't know. I really just want to eat noodles", I say "How about Jijangmyeon?", Lix suggests. "Perfect", I say and he orders.