Accident

Chapter 35

Almost three month have past since we debuted and since I talked to Lix.

Im really busy with my schedule or at least that's what I tell myself. Maybe Im also avoiding him. Im still hurt because he didn't follow me when I needed him the most.

He didn't even try to apologize. He just started to get distanced form me.

It breaks my heart a little more.

I wake up drown in sweat. My breath is heavy and my clothes are clenched to my body. Someone opens my door.

"Are you okay?", Jimin unnie pats my back and I nod like a robot. My nightmares are getting more again since three month.

Its almost like Lix brought them to me after he left. "Lets get changed and we can go to the recording studio okay", she asks and I nod.

We walk into the studio and Jyp walks past us. We bow at him and he stops me. "Sisi, I had a request for you", he starts and I go to him.

"Could you do a v live today? I know you have a lot to do and you guys didn't have an album yet, but I thought you could do one. The media is going crazy about you guys recently", he said and I agree.

Me and Jimin unnie finish the recording and Jimin unnie leaves to go back to the dorm.

Its actually already ten pm again. I have some homework to finish so Im just going to connect my homework with my v live.

I set my work phone up and then turn on v live. I press the button and start the live.

"Hi its Sisi. I know this is really random, but I wanted to chat with some of you", I say smiling. "So this is my first v live please be nice. And I have to finish some homework", I start it and chat with them about my day.

"So me and Jimin unnie recorded some songs today. It was really fun to do it. Jimin unnie is really cool and I enjoy it a lot to write songs with her", I tell tiny's.

After forty minutes I finish my homework and close my book. I smile into the camera.

"I finished my homework. Now I can answer some question of you. Let me see", I take my private phone out and turn on my own v live to read the comments.

"How many langue's can you speak?...So I can speak Korean and Chinese because of my mother. English from my father and I learned Japanese, German and Spanish in school. So yeah wait no. I can speak English and French from my father. But I usually only speak English that's why my Korean isn't very good", I say and nod cutely.

"Do you have any pets? No, I used to have two dogs and one cat, but that was when I was I think nine.

Do you have siblings?....So this is kind of complicated and personal. Im not even sure if im allowed to answer this. But since I trust tiny. I have a twin brother, he is with me in Korea. I have a older brother in Australia, but we don't have any contact anymore and I used to have a older sister...", my face turns a little sad, but I try to cover it up quickly.

"Unnie did you eat?...So I was actually going to eat, but I noticed I don't have any money with me and I was to lazy to go back to the dorm so no. I didn't eat anything. But don't worry Im fine", I say laughing off my stupidness.

"You should eat and rest...No, Im okay", I say and look into the camera. "Its not even that late. But to those who have school tomorrow. You need to go to sleep", I say like a mother and giggle afterwards.

"Where are you from? So my dad is from Australia and France, so he is mixed. My mother is Korean and Chinese, also mixed. So I don't really know what I am", I say laughing.

"Can you speak in English? Sure", I smile and answer some more questions. I am in the middle of one, when the door suddenly opens.

I look at it and see Jeongin

"Hey, Im doing a v live", I say and he smiles. "Do you want to join?", I ask "Sure, why not. Seungmin is coming to", he tells me and sits down next to me.

"Hi tiny", he says while making a cute face. "I was answering some questions. How was your day?", we start a conversation and connect even more with tiny's.

"So then we decided to stop recording...", Jeongin is in the middle of explaining me how his day was, when the door gets pulled open.

"Oh here you are...oh hi Sisi", Lix quickly looks away. I quickly look down on my lap. "We have to finish some recordings. Come", Lix tells him and Jeongin stands up.

He waves at the camera. "Bye tiny see you hopefully later", he smiles and ruffles my hair before leaving.

"Its really late, maybe we should end it here for today. Sleep well tiny. Hope I can do an other live soon again", I close the live and sign.

Its now one am. But it really doesn't matter. I wouldn't be able to fall asleep anyway.

Since some months I only sleep three to four hours.

I walk into a dance studio and lie on the floor.

My eyes slowly close and I fall asleep after three hours of staring at the celling.